You give me fever

Ugh!!!
💚 💛
Okay. Not too much
I just smile a lot when we’re together

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Bad kisser

My only regret
is that I did not forget
You sooner
Than this
And…
the only thing I truly miss
Was my idea of you
But not really you at all

 

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Fuck you

I really miss you
But
Why should I?
Cause you were once really fucking cool
And now you’re not
To me anyways
I’ve been good up until now
I don’t know why
It made me kinda sad 
Today
I wish you were here with me
Getting a beer
Lol
This post sucks
And I don’t even care

Don’t need you to be in love

Thinking about everything you said
Makes me question you
Even as a friend
Cause you can’t deal with anything that’s not easy
So why should you get any of the fun
You’re flick of the switch from on to off
Makes me see
a side that most of us hide behind having fun
I don’t trust it
I don’t know it
And I’m sure if you gave more than a crumb of yourself to anyone
and they responded the way you did
It would break your heart

I don’t care if you feel the same
Actually I’m pretty okay that you don’t
Cause i don’t want to have to feel for someone who doesn’t know how to deal
With emotions and people who deserve a little better
Than what you give

Maybe you don’t  think anyone deserves anything unless you’re in love or unless you’ve known them as friends
But we crossed a line
That I wish we didn’t
What I see from you now
Is not the qualities I seek
But I’ve been attracted to
The kind of people who aren’t really there or aware of themselves
But can see and judge others
And lack the sensitivity
Until they are the one who’s ignored
I can feel myself change
As I look for people who are able to be open and give more of themselves and love
You deserve to be happy
But I gave the wrong person too much of myself
I care and love you
But I know what I don’t need to ever be okay with again
Go get what your heart wants
You do not make me feel safe 
Or secure
As friends and as more
You were not clear
Get that clear
Before you get angry
At someone who had the balls to say something
I won’t ever say to you again

You taught me that some people give way more back
When you don’t give them the time of day
And you treat them like they need

the girl from my bedroom

His fate faints before the faulty chapter.
lacking substance
blowing smoke rings around the bend
trying to find meaning where there is none
We are closer now to the end

The water absorbs an exotic teapot behind the badge.
A wound papers a surviving commentator.
The storm trails throughout the brick.
The shifting mayor originates beneath his fourth wife.
Its joined fossil flips behind the unwilling fever.
Why won’t he believe?
Revenge collapses next to desire.
The street reflects the absent spirit
A musician loses
the sabotage underneath the vice
Will a gibberish struggle?
the silence sneaks beneath him
As his sweat rearranges the sky.
The defense trips?
The defensive slips
as the blood drips
down
The bible shares the leaded performance before your ignorance.

This generation is sick

Digital clock
Digital age
On to the next
With the swipe of a page
I don’t need or want
another app
to feed or fill the emotional gap
This is not truth this is not the way
we are just further removed and further away

From.what really matters
And what does not matter at all
So much of us is spent
Behind the wall
We give meaning to the  meaningless
The people we don’t know
We try to impress
just for ego and for show
The lack of real
you can really feel.
Behind the faces
Behind the screens
Behind the smoke
Until everything is just a joke
The more we have
The less we hold
The way it is
Is gettin old
where it is
Is not where it’s at
And Who I am
Wants none of that

Sometimes

I will not
have you
Act like you did nothing
But be clear
About something
That was never clear
I will not
Have you
Matter to me
More than I matter to you
I will look at this
And see it for what it is
And look at you and see you for how you are
And i will remember this
And not ever be confused in thinking that your actions before were what they OBVIOUSLY are not now
Maybe someday you might see things from my side
But I don’t need to be close
To something that is so far away
To someone who closes me off
I don’t need to be anything or anyone
That means nothing
To you