Beso

Every kiss

That I miss

He does not

Miss at all

He built his wall

Between us

He does not call

He does not care

To have me there

With him

He doesn’t love me

Anymore

He shut the door

On me

If he could only see

Things from inside of my heart

But what’s the point?

He lied

He cheated

He treated me

Like shit

Worse than shit

Like nothing

Everyone else saw it

I held on to the good

That was just a lie

That’s why

I don’t even try

He’s a lost cause

It’s pointless now

To hold on to something

Or someone

Who cared so little

When I cared so much.

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Kill it

I go into things with the best heart

But for what?

Just to have bunch of bad feelings and negative remarks

Your jokes are kinda mean

You say no almost everything I am excited about

You’re sweet to be sour

You reject me

In more ways than you’re aware.

And being aware means sometimes having to admit your wrong so that’s not going to happen

And I feel bad for even trying to include you into my life

Or bring excited

I want to do things with you

But you have this negative vibe towards me

And it crushes my child like excitement that I had towards us.

I’m cold

It’s cold out here

And where are you?

My one wish

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If I ever had a connection with anyone

Right now is the time to feel me

I can’t speak the words

I can’t move

I can’t go to you

I need you to feel me

And do something

Or not

Maybe that’s the way it needs to be

But if that’s the case

Then nothing means anything

And everything means nothing

And I’ll go to sleep alone

Just like I’ll die alone

And it all was a waste of time

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I’m so sad

Stupid

Why do I want

What doesn’t want me

What doesn’t care about about taking care

There is no care in this stupid world

Only selfish people

Who don’t give any of themselves

In any way that doesn’t serve them

Yet they expect and take all from others

You want control

I want out

Of waking up

Every fucking day

Surrounded by assholes

And selfish fucks

That fuck up my head and my heart

Cause I actually have a head and a heart

This is where

I draw the line

I got too much good

To let a world where I cannot be myself

Ruin me

I’d rather ruin me

Before they do.

Kick rocks

I wish the best for the world

But take a real good look at the works abs where it’s going

Take a real good look at the people

Take a real good look at yourself

Yeah… No thanks

One day I realized that this isn’t going to change.

It’s only getting worse

And i was right.

I’m not going to suffer just cause you ask me to

My selfishness isn’t soul stripping or heartbreaking like living is for me now

In a few years it won’t even matter. Life goes on. People only care about what they can never get back once it’s gone and they can never get it back .

I’ll make my own heaven the way I want

But it ain’t gonna be here

This here is hell

So long

How bad this feels

I get treated like nothing

He is just like the rest

Void of emotions

He doesn’t really give a fuck about me

Or how I feel

I’m tired of life

I’m tired of giving a part of myself to someone

Who I think cares for me

But only cares about themselves

I feel so alone in this world

I’m tired

I’m spent

And I don’t want to be here anymore.

36 years is enough

All the assholes can deal with each other

I’m jumping ship

Fuck this

the bed you made me sleep in

no love
no words
no care
no heart
no try
no thought
no time
no reply
no reason why
no hello
no goodbye

all i got was
your cold shoulder
your dead eyes
and your hate
directed indirectly at me

and there’s no reason
i deserve
your abuse
or your stupid excuse
for why it’s okay for you
to do the things that you do
i would hate to be you
you are blind
your deception of mind
was the abuse given to you
that you now give back to the world

Or at least to me

you don’t treat me good
you don’t treat love like you should
the good in you has died
And all you got now

Is evil inside

Not my Captain

under cover tears
and under cover fears
steers

the ship
without help

from me or you

under a moonless darkness
of questions

My heart weeps

while
your other lover sleeps
She rests without worry
without wonder

Without thought
As she takes
your heart and soul for a walk
in the streets of longing i seek
the things you shall never speak
not to me

ever
and never
when
i needed you to

an enigma is not that great
When it’s an empty full of hate
it has no soul
and has no control

but i’m not the one
who’s got you trapped
down in a hole
and calls it child support
but yet I am the one
who you abort
cause you’re old
cause you’re cold

the last sentence you saw
makes people shiver
the last sentence you saw
is running away
to a better day
a more passionate evening
stole all the goods

i have a trained assassin stay overnight
just in case
i’m caught up in a fight
i didn’t start
but i WILL end
when i send in
my ninja friend
to break
some knees
please
let the HEARTBREAKING lies
roll over us
like the warm summer breeze.
abstraction is often FIVE floorS above you
while
subtraction is a hundred floors below
that is something
you see in others
but in yourself
will never know

An itch

He’s got an itch

To turn the switch

In the snap of a finger

He’s a dead ringer

For Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hide

Which side?

Is he gonna be on now?

Watch what you say…

And you better obey !!!

cause it’s only his way or the highway

he refuses
to meet halfway

I can only care so much

And…
i Can’t get too close
cause it’s the ones who are close

That he likes to hurt the most

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I don’t even try

Morning sun slips in

Through the blacks of My eyes

A second away from night

A moment away from sight

And many moons and days away from you

Feels like years now since we were we

I know you’ve moved on to worse things that make you feel better

At least for now

And I just move around in beds and in heads of others

To distract

I might seem okay to everyone else but it’s all just an act

A sad little act that maybe I’ll someday actually be

But the real me

Is a sad sight to see

inside I am empty

lonely

And lost

without you.

And there’s nothing I can do

Cause there’s no reason to

You gave me nothing

A million times left with no reply

Now nothing is all I got left

To give

So I don’t even try

In rooms alone it still makes me cry

I know the reason why

so i don’t even try

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Wednesday night

I Was feeling sad

Rejected

Unwanted

Then someone called my name

Then another person bought me flowers

But it still didn’t feel the same.

I’m grateful for this who cared

In a moment when someone did not

But I guess I just caught

Feelings

In a moment

For someone I should have thought twice about

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