Dark nights and booze

What do you do when the one you love doesn’t love you?

Nothing. You can’t do anything

But slowly die.

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Nothing gets through to you

It’s not all about me

It’s about you too

You live to destroy anything good that I give you

You never look at yourself.

Must be nice living that way

That’s not advanced

That’s pussy-ass shit

If you looked at your behavior even just half the times you’ve made me look at mine then maybe it would work…

But like I said you create problems that aren’t there

And you like to destroy shit that’s actually good.

So I have no more for you.

No more patience

No more understanding

No more chances

No more tolerance for you period

And no more love

I’m done

And you need to stay the fuck away from me. Period

You want to treat me like a bitch then i will be one.

Good riddance you stupid little man.

Final thought about you

I loved you more than anyone

I would have done anything for you if you just believed in me

But you didn’t even want to try

To show me something a little better

You couldn’t even show me love and now

I just never want to see your face again

It’s cold outside

this desire

bottles full of memories

I struggle with the world

without you love

substances find problems

your fear finds misunderstanding

your fear keeps you away

and there’s nothing I can do

to change that

.

time is an island

deserted and alone

afraid to be forgotten

trying to survive

why must the wind

be so harsh?

the fallen

leaves

dance

on.

abandon

walls.

suicide without being able

to die

you take the path

of habit

devils and wolves

hijacked you

and your love

it really doesn’t matter now…

does it?

impossible to

get through

to you.

you got what

you wanted.

me removed.

i give up

and turn away

And stay

That way

On the path that

No longer leads to you.

  • kc

2018

I’m not here. I’m not there.

“Sometimes it’s like someone took a knife, baby
Edgy and dull and cut a six inch valley
Through the middle of my skull

At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet
And a freight train running through the middle of my head
Only you can cool my desire
Oh oh oh, I’m on fire”

-Bruce Springsteen

A rant. Needed to get sometime off my chest

Anger

Outrage

Mean and hurtful words

Name calling

Expecting more

Then they’re willing to give

Doesn’t know the meaning of loving someone unconditionally

Changes the rules to fit whatever works for them and then only

Lies

Threatens

Doesn’t follow through

Abusive

Blames

Ignores

Is unfair

Is unkind

Is mean

Is untrustworthy with actions words and behavior

Unable to see themselves the way others do

Unable to go get professional help

No self control over the things that actual need it

No appreciation for peoples time she effort and feelings.

Abandons never says sorry

Is inconsistent in everything said and done

And I’m not the only one

Who has felt

His crazy

Delilusionsal side.

His games

His excuses

His childish ways

Get old

…..

Talking with a friend today

About this

And she said everything a already no know.

He’s just no good

Because HE chooses to be no good

Not because he’s around women that only see the bad but because they actually sees his bad. And there’s a lot.

He would always threaten me with dating someone else or how he could get someone better or with some other loser chicks naked pics on his phone.

And there’s so much more

Why would I ever want to be with him.

Yeah maybe his good side was good and we had great times

But that never lasted.

The last time he went off on me was because I was at work and I texted him. He didn’t reply so I went home to get some things I needed for the next day and he got pissed and told me not to go over cause he was at some urge girls house (which was A lie- I think but who fucking knows)

Theb he called me the worst things imaginable.

All one day after saying to each other we were going to start all over and let the past be the past and not get so angry and vengeful.

I tried all I could for the next day

Only to have him NOT TRY AT ALL

More name calling

More games

More anger

More lies

And I sill tried

So if he ever wonders why

I’m no longer here

It’s cause no one would put up with that kind of abusive behavior

Why would I want to?

It’s shit

And someone much better for me

Will show me much more than he

Could ever show

I don’t want someone who doesn’t even care

To grow

As a person in the best ways he can

He is a sad and lonely man

Who had my love

Until he kept fucking it up

And not he has nothing of me

And I ain’t ever going back

He’s too old to actually change.

And I don’t give a fuck

Cause I know that my love was true

And everyone knows he just took me for granted

Like he does with so many other things

I’m sick

I’m sick

And i don’t need someone so stupid and blind

WHO CAN NEVER ADMIT HIS FAULTS OR WHEN HE’S WRONG

Who would actually want that kind of a “man ”

I’m better off taking a Chance on someone new

Anything is better than him

Ugh

-kc

(Everything you were afraid of

Is now coming true

Thanks to you)