Happy not happy birthday

You’re either in or out

Don’t half ass shit

Or feed me your crumbs

And call it love

I hate birthdays…

Goodnight

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For once

Why can’t you understand how i might feel? Or care to at least.

Why do you have to be angry?

Why do you have to be unloving

Look at what it is

You always only think about you

And I always think about you

I don’t just hold on to anger and use it like it’s an excuse for my behavior

I have a temper but I control that shit or else I’m called stupid or crazy

Yet you don’t have to control it cause you don’t feel like it and

What’s the point ?

I may have a lot to learn

But so do you

And it’s not ever gonna work if you don’t care about how I feel as well

I care about you

Do you really care about me?

You don’t seem to really care about my feelings.

You don’t seem to care about how much love i do show you and give you

You don’t seem to want to be better cause your past has made your future and your present and you’re not open to the possibility of it being better if you actually put some effort into it.

Loving you has been exhausting when you’re like this.

I can’t do it all without some kind of care in return. Some kind of honest desire for us to have a good relationship and the goal of being the best person cause you care about me and want it to work.

Man….if you could only see yourself from my perspective. If you knew how cold and unloving you can be after all the good times we’ve had. But you never look at the good. You just put me in a box with the rest of your exs and it’s not fair and it’s not kind and sometimes I just want you to be fair and kind and understanding and think about me.

I can’t make you do anything you dint want to do

And this is why I leave

Cause I can’t be the only one who really wants this to work and actually tries to be better

I can’t be the only one who cares

It’s a shitty feeling

If you ever felt unwanted then why would you make someone who honestly loves you feel that way?

I guess cause you never think about it like that.

You don’t care how I feel.

And I’m so tired of giving my heart to someone who couldn’t care less if I was in their life or not

If I’m that unimportant to you then I guess you’re better off without me around

And I’m better off not being around someone who doesn’t do anything to try to keep me around.

Goodnight

In my last days

I witness.

The sadness things.

That I love

Die .

And I don’t know why