I hate this

please god just make this feeling go away

I just wish I never met you

because I’ve had love and I know love

so for the love that I’ve actually had I’m greatful

I did not need someone to trigger my trauma in the most heartless fucked up way like this.

I was lied to

promised love and I thought I was given love

and got it all taken away in the course of a day

fuck this

this is getting to be too much on my heart.

I can’t even function

and all that he had to do was communicate to me before just destroying me and leaving.

I want myself back

but he took that and broke me into little pieces that I’m trying to piece back together on my own.

I just don’t know what to do anymore

this is not getting easier

this is the worst thing I’ve ever been through

and I just don’t want to feel anymore.

I really just don’t know what to do.