Not sad…

I think today I just needed more

And everyday

It feels like less and less

I think I’m gonna just expect

This

Amount

Alone

And

Not want

Not ask

Not expect

Not pursue

Anything

More

Than what someone

Gives naturally.

I tried to communicate this

I did communicate This

My lesson

Is for me

To not want

Need

Anything

More

From anyone

And to give less

Fucks

Because

I don’t need anything

Or anyone….

People give more when they want more

Not when someone else actually needs it

We are all just selfish little creatures

Little monsters

Another xanex

To force myself to fall asleep

Cause I’m not tired

But I wish I was

I’d rather sleep

Than to feel this

I’d rather feel nothing

Than to feel this

Goodnight