But it’s not you
It’s me
That I can’t fix
Sorry for wasting your time
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Author: b-side junkie
feel bad inc.
my mind is hijacked
by a devil wanna be
he
wants me down
in the hole
he’s spent his whole life in
talks about justice and sin
no one ever wins
a race
laced
with confusion
and complicated jabber
smoke screen face
and a mouth full of blabber
diabolical and habitual
is his gaslight
take flight
ritutual.
i feel so down and damaged and used
and abused
and so far away from who i used to be
he tells me i don’t know myself
and he’s right cause this ain’t me
this ain’t who i used to be
before he came into my life
and now….
i am… trying to feel what is actually real again
the devil’s trick
is to
to inflict
trouble
and to cause pain
by inconsistent acts
that stir
then cure
and blur
out the mess
they infest
with such charm
one doesn’t see the harm
they’re in
until it’s much too late.
elevated
inflated
isolated
dissipated
enervated
operated
terminated
discombobulated
this sucks
and i want to die
if i could i would
there comes a point
when there is no point
to any of this anymore
all it does is show me
you are no good
you don’t know how cruel you can be
you don’t know or care what you do and have done to me
i give up
i’m tired
i’m sick
of the cruel hearted
like you
the departed
but still alive enough to
spread your ugly evil around
close minded
not listening
to any truth (your truth is faulty cause of the holes in your brain)
but talking and fighting over lies
i guess you don’t realize
what you have done to my heart
to my soul
to by will
and that’s enough
for me to kill
myself
like you killed my soul
and abused my heart
that’s enough to make me
it’s time for me to part
i leave this world
for you because of you
you love to destroy everything in your path
with every ugly mean word you say
with all of your wrath
you are a cruel cruel fool
you can forget about me now
you can forget
and let yourself believe
everything was me
and i’m the one to blame
it’s such a shame
that’s the only game you know how to play
instead of doing things a better way
it’s past that point
where i want to try
don’t ask me why
when you know
it’s you that pushed me
just to see if you could
i’ve been searching for a way
to get through this low
to get out of the negative
you make people feel
want to talk about something that is real
you won’t get another chance
cause i’m not living this another day through
you can’t even see how much hurt you do
when all i ever did was love you
but the more i loved you and the more i tried
the less you did
until a part of me died
now it will be all of me
you will never have to see me again
the last words you ever said to me
were fuck you
i hate you
well
now you know why i hate me too
it’s done. it’s over. i’m not here anymore. you lose.
any place will be better than living with a hateful destructive person like you.
i hope someone makes you feel exactly how you made me feel and it makes you have the balls to actually kill yourself too.
but i won’t be on the other side waiting for someone like you
ever again
thank you booze and thank you for all the pills in the world
so i can go to sleep and never wake up again.
Boy meets girl from outer space
You….
Make my heart go boom boom boom!!!
Bpd misery
Automatic trigger
The Verbal gun
The velvet tongue
The nagging voice
Is like a Cancer
To my brain
Overall I’ve gotten better
But I’m still mostly the same
Don’t react
Don’t begin
To lose control
Don’t get caught up in
Your drunkard spin
I’d rather watch you drink
And sick yourself
Into
Oblivion
than
To sit and watch you stay
oblivious
You can’t beat
The army of people you mistreat
And expect them to have your back
The next time you attack
Someone new
Get a clue
You biggest enemy is you
Luis
You…
….
….
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Reason to believe – Bruce Springsteen
Seen a man standin’ over a dead dog lyin’ by the highway in a ditch
He’s lookin’ down kinda puzzled pokin’ that dog with a stick
Got his car door flung open he’s standin’ out on Highway 31
Like if he stood there long enough that dog’d get up and run
It struck me kinda funny, seemed kinda funny sir to me
Still at the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe
Now Mary Lou loved Johnny with a love mean and true
She said “Baby I’ll work for you every day, bring my money home to you”
One day he up and left her and ever since that
She waits down at the end of that dirt road for young Johnny to come back
Struck me kinda funny, funny yeah to me
How at the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe
Take a baby to the river, Kyle William they called him
Wash the baby in the water, take away little Kyle’s sin
In a whitewash shotgun shack an old man passes away
Take his body to the graveyard, over him they pray
Lord won’t you tell us, tell us what does it mean
At the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe
Congregation gathers down by the riverside
Preacher stands with a Bible, groom stands waitin’ for his bride
Congregation gone and the sun sets behind a weepin’ willow tree
Groom stands alone and watches the river rush on so effortlessly
Wonderin’ where can his baby be
Still at the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe
Let’s Start A CONVERSATION…
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*respect is the key.
if we don’t agree with someone else’s views – ask questions- debate- do some research and state facts- but be respectful at all times. listen to one another. sometimes I think the majority of the problems in society start with not fully listening to one another and be too REACTIVE. Have an open mind and an open heart. i can honestly say that holding on to a set of beliefs so tightly and not wanting to hear anyone else’s perspective because of my “beliefs”, actually made me stupid. belief is a strong word… and a belief. in something that’s so strong without knowing and having an understanding of the other sides is dangerous. I try to be careful with my beliefs whether it be over use of the word itself or quickly subscribing to a belief without knowing all the facts and educating myself on the opposing views that are different than my own.
anyways – I’m am not pro or anti trump… what I mean by that is I accept he is our president and have respect for our country enough to act like an adult and to know that I am lucky in many ways to be an American. i posed this question because so many people hate our president and have no problems defacing property with crude and vulgar remarks about him, have no problem burning the American flag because of their disappointment in him getting voted into office… talk shit about our president on public forums and act pretty badly whenever speaking about him. in my opinion- by showing no respect for the man who was elected our president of the United States of America – makes us look bad. not to mention divided…and like little whiney baby’s who didn’t get our way. if we want to be treated with respect we have to be respectful regardless if we hate or love the guy. if you don’t agree with something he’s done or said… that’s fine and totally your right to voice it – but in a civil manner. maybe dive deeper into educating and researching how different media gets fed differently in different parts of the US. Maybe try to look for something positive he’s doing (if you don’t like him) and if you do like him try to understand the reasons behind why others don’t.
I think I can say as an American citizen – born and raised in California – I work hard for the money I make. I am not racist, I’m am not privileged, I’m not unkind. I am for people. my biggest concern is we have to be right as a country and help ourselves first and find a way together as Americans before we can help anyone else. I’m not opposed to people who come here from other countries and want to stay here because they may have more opportunities out here than where they are from. I think that is what America is made of and that’s why you find the most diversity out here than anywhere else in the world. However, if you do want to come and stay in America then do it the right way. Do it like my grandmother from Japan did in the 1950s. BECOME A CITIZEN. PAY TAXES LIKE THE REST OF US.
why would anyone get angry at us citizens wanting that from non-US citizens living out here illegally? think about that for a moment. if I went to any other country and decided I wanted to stay and live out there- I would have to do it the right way. once my visa was up- they would send me back – no if ands or butts.
you may hate my views on this subject but if you knew me and how much I want this world to be a better place you would understand that what I’m saying doesn’t come from a place of hate. it comes from a place of love and doing the right thing. Anyone who works hard to earn however much they make deserve that money from working hard. I love to help those who are in real need of help. I just feel that too many people out there who need to LEARN to help themselves. Some people are just lazy and take advantage of the system and the help they received. … I treat everyone I meet – with respect. it doesn’t mater to me what color you are or where you come from, how much money you have, how you look, or what you own. it’s how you conduct yourself that matters. how much integrity you have and kindness you share. it is about hard work. what you put in is what you’ll get in return.
I was going to continue with my thoughts on this but realized that i’m getting off course a bit. my question that I asked at the beginning of this post was no more than me being curious. not everyone is going to think and feel the same- but we should be able to voice our thoughts and opinions without cutting below the belt or getting out of control.
anyways I hope all of you have a beautiful and fulfilling day. please post your answers, feelings and thoughts in the comments below.
thank you. 🙂
Cvs
I go to cvs on my way home
Alone
To not feel lonelier than I already do
You broke my heart
And you think I did you wrong
You have no heart
If you even think for a second that
That is true..
You have no idea what I feel
Cause you just don’t care.
You believe in things that are not real
And you leave people
To carry the pain and hurt
That you cause
And you go on
While I
Try to
But do not
I keep myself busy
To barely keep myself alive
I wasn’t like this before
I met you
And you destroyed me
I hope someday you feel
Exactly how you made me feel
My love for you was pure and true
And you made me become one of you.
Broken
And barely alive
A reminder
I have my Bullshit
Like everyone does
But right now
Right here
Let’s put that aside
And remember the love
All of you are beautiful
And we are in this together
Even when it feels like we’re not
Remember you are loved
Gonna make you mine
Late night
Meeting
The time is fleeting
A smile across the table
I never get tired
Of smiling at you
Someday soon
It’s just a matter of time
Someday soon… Baby
I’m gonna make you mine.
