I’m lonely
Without you
I wanna see your face
I don’t want to wait
Until the next life
For us to get it right
Another life time
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Summer evening
What’s the point
I know what it is but why does it have to be so difficult?
Put me in the Box
I used to call home
I feel sick when you do
I feel even worse without you
Push and pull
Yes and no
Come and go
All fucking day
One fight
Shouldn’t ruin what’s been right
Even though what’s wrong
Is bullshit annoying.
I go outside
And stare at the Brick wall
In my back yard
It’s missing a brick
The air feels cool
But the tension stays thick
I just want you to be happy
Can I be happy too?
Yes.
I can.
Buster and Mew R.I.P.
Nothing
You cared about me
Only when it served you
And now you do
Exactly what you always do
Nothing
New
Nothing at all
I’m the one
to break your fall?
When all you do
Is hide behind
Your stupid wall
After you start shit
And just quit
What a waste
Of everything
I gave
You did everything
(To destroy)
And left me nothing
Good at all
You need professional fucking help
happy Thursday
make your way
the years go by
so fast
warp speed
did I need…
all the crazy
all the bullshit???
I don’t understand
how so many years
have passed
in a flash of light
in the beat of a heart
sometimes I just want to go back
to back to the start
just yesterday
I was there
now I’m here
aged in the
age of lament
with all those years
and days
and moments
spent
with all the people
and places
and things
that went
along
now gone
time
the bittersweet
heartbreaker
what’s it all about
to be with
only then to be left without
it’s kind of a cruel joke
we are born
just to croak
all the pain and all the joy
we will never be here again
not like this
not this moment
not ever again
let the love in
let the bullshit go
you will miss this
you will miss
I miss it
more than you will ever know
Eat crow
burnt my two fingers
Burnt
Two fingers
Dry lips make
Paper stick
And fingers slide down
I ash all over myself
So not myself .
Or maybe this is really
Who I am.
God damn
Albatross
Knuckle under
Kneel over
And down
Seems like everything
kicks me down
When Im already there
But now
The difference is
I don’t care
To speak up
To say what I feel
To any of you
What good does it do
It doesn’t
Another night locked up
In a bathroom
In a cell
In this hell
Alone
Alone
Water from the faucet
Water down the drain
I’m done with this pain
I’m done
I just wasn’t the person for this job
The hour is getting late
Take one for the road
I didn’t have the voice
But what I have
Is the choice
Everything will be okay now
Garage yoga cigarette blues
Self split
Can never quite put
My finger on it
But something is there
To make me aware
Of tiny shifts
Of attitude and you
And it’s making me blue
It’s better not to care
Because everyone else doesn’t really seem to anymore
If they ever even did
It’s making me blue
That all I ever was to you (the only one)
Was nothing
Without you
I feel nothing
You
I miss you
But I know
You don’t
Miss me
A little boy
He does everything
He doesn’t want me to do to him
And I’m tired of
His hypocrasy
His lost
Is my gain
He’s showing me
What not to care about
All I need to do
Is stay calm
And not get so upset
Over people
Who don’t know how
To care
To make others want to stick around
This is a bad investment
And I’m not putting any more
In to something that returns less and less
It’s worthless
And a waste of my time
And energy
To deal with someone
Who can’t play fair
another day passes
take another drink
to sink
your mind into
out of the blue
and into the black
just another
sick attack
just another
thing to stack
on top of
all the other
challenges
and
obstacles
I don’t want to understand
but I do
but can’t you stop
and see me
like I see you
tummy churns
and the heart burns
I die a little more
every time
it goes
and blows
a little more
away
all the things I try
but fail
to say
that you
don’t hear
don’t care to listen to
anyway
why do you make me feel this
fucked up way
I’m not okay
