tonight you pushed me away
too far
too cold
and you don’t care to fix it
just be caring
about hearing and understanding the person
you supposedly care about
i won’t get close to someone who makes me feel so far away
day after day
i’ll just start acting like you
or better yet
i won’t
i just won’t
care to
put my heart out there
for you to crush
and choke
and cut down again
now you don’t have to listen
i don’t have any more feelings to share with you
cause i won’t have any more feelings
for you at all
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miserableboy42
time for the tables to turn
it’s time for me to ignore
all that is you
cause all you seem to do
is find a reason
to make me wrong
so you can do what you do
and i’m not going to swallow that
shit you call love
when it’s all just abuse
i really loved you
and this is what you do
to me
who just wanted to be good to you
but even that
isn’t good enough for you
you look for any reason
to turn
what was true
into a lie
so you can do
whatever you want to do
you’d rather be right being wrong
the same ol’ story
your same old fucking song
it never mattered
how much or little
i give to you
the idea you have made up
in your wet drunken
sunken head
has killed my love
has left me mostly dead
instead of trust
you push and you push
until you bust
any good
that we had
some people love their misery
some people like being sad
and mad
and drunk
and sunk
and that someone is you
out to sea
this is you
but this ain’t me
your drowning
drowning in your own
sorrow
fucked up
and checked out
in your make believe
ugly world
that ain’t mine
this isn’t the time
to go down
to the hell
you call home
I don’t even like you now
The flip
Of the switch
In you
Is not who
I want to share my time space and life with
Youuu spit nasty remarks
Throw daggers in the dark
Ignore everything you do
Everything you say
As you point your finger my way
Crazy maker
Soul taker
Biggest faker
I’ve ever known
You sure haven’t grown
You’ve shrunk into
A nothing you
Going nowhere fast
Nothing good with you
Ever lasts
You turned bad
And I have had
Enough
I am 100%
DONE
with you.
I shake you off
Time to move along
And walk away
Never looking back
Sleep watcher
I go over
To your house
And every time
You fall asleep
Maybe it’s me
You’re always waiting
For me to show up
And I’m always watching you sleep
right fighter (serial killer)
murderer
sickness
I am sick
but you are cancer
you think you have the answer
to everything
which you do not know
even though
you know me better than most
here’s a toast
to you
and your ability to kill
at will
and still
think you’re right
even when you’ve lost sight
blind as a bat
scaredy cat
with your proverbiale claws out
but worse
cause you curse
everyone you love
in your “passive aggressive
fucked up
fuck you ”
kind of way
that ain’t kind at all
do you get off on watching others
that you think are guilty- fall?
and let me pose another question
for you
that i know you’ll never answer
cause you’re too busy building up your stupid wall
is there a slight chance
just maybe
quite possibly…
you could be wrong at all?
ha
NEVER! NOT YOU!
stand by your convictions
fight to be right
just to be right
can’t even acknowledge left
or that you could be wrong
same old story
same old UGLY SAD PATHETIC song
spread your ill
and kill
the ones who ever loved you
OFF
SO YOU CAN SAY
IN YOUR FUCKED UP HEAD
“at least i’m right”
Another life time
I’m lonely
Without you
I wanna see your face
I don’t want to wait
Until the next life
For us to get it right
Summer evening
What’s the point
I know what it is but why does it have to be so difficult?
Put me in the Box
I used to call home
I feel sick when you do
I feel even worse without you
Push and pull
Yes and no
Come and go
All fucking day
One fight
Shouldn’t ruin what’s been right
Even though what’s wrong
Is bullshit annoying.
I go outside
And stare at the Brick wall
In my back yard
It’s missing a brick
The air feels cool
But the tension stays thick
I just want you to be happy
Can I be happy too?
Yes.
I can.
Buster and Mew R.I.P.
Nothing
You cared about me
Only when it served you
And now you do
Exactly what you always do
Nothing
New
Nothing at all
I’m the one
to break your fall?
When all you do
Is hide behind
Your stupid wall
After you start shit
And just quit
What a waste
Of everything
I gave
You did everything
(To destroy)
And left me nothing
Good at all
You need professional fucking help
happy Thursday
make your way
the years go by
so fast
warp speed
did I need…
all the crazy
all the bullshit???
I don’t understand
how so many years
have passed
in a flash of light
in the beat of a heart
sometimes I just want to go back
to back to the start
just yesterday
I was there
now I’m here
aged in the
age of lament
with all those years
and days
and moments
spent
with all the people
and places
and things
that went
along
now gone
time
the bittersweet
heartbreaker
what’s it all about
to be with
only then to be left without
it’s kind of a cruel joke
we are born
just to croak
all the pain and all the joy
we will never be here again
not like this
not this moment
not ever again
let the love in
let the bullshit go
you will miss this
you will miss
I miss it
more than you will ever know
