when I feel
like I can’t be
who
I think I should be
I start to see
what I’m not.
more importantly
I feel
it all
I feel
everything
and nothing
and everything all over again
and I don’t know how to deal
with more than you know
with more than I show
what’s real to me
may not be real to you
but I want to be understood
instead of this
miss
communication
misconnection
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you have been complaining
about everything I’m not
making me feel bad
like this ended because of me
but what you fail to see
is you stopped
caring long ago
you expected me to show
you everything
when you gave me little
but everything you gave had a price
if you didn’t get your way
you weren’t very nice
I was tired
stressed
burnt the fuck out
instead of understanding
you made me feel doubt
no birthday card
no valentine
no special something
sometimes
to show me
I meant something
to you
and now you have the nerve
to make me feel like
it was me who wasn’t true.
ha!
all the good people give to you
you handle carelessly
and viciously
and think it’s justified
all the responsibilities
you just let go to the wayside
careless
heartless
loveless
you
I wish I never knew
if I had a clue that this was who you are
I would have kept you far
far
far
away.
now it’s clear
that you aren’t someone I want near
I will stay clear
away from you
and move on
to someone who is willing to grow
and show
love
not just sit there and expect me to do all the work
you are just a jerk
I loved you but you were not ready for love.
goodbye.
waiting out the days
Don’t want to scream and shout
but I can’t seem to figure it out
I feel like half a person
a big hole in soul
a big hole in my heart
when I reach out to you
you just tear me more apart
and I wish I was better
maybe better off dead
I let myself go through it
be in it
just to get you out of my head.
it’s so easy for you to be mean
hide behind your smoke screen
if you ever loved me
if you ever cared
I can’t tell
I’m not well
you love seeing me down
you love putting me through hell
and I wish I was happy
maybe I’d be better off dead
I have to get through this
be in this
just to shed you from my head
I know things will get easier
time heals
or so they say
but right now
I’m all kinds of broken
-just waiting out the days
until I’m okay again
Above is a great journal to help you get through a breakup. Sometimes keeping a record of how you feel and what you’re going through day by day can help you better understand yourself and be more self-aware. It also can help you be aware of unhealthy patterns and habits.
what a mess
you can be mad
misunderstand me
think that I’m bad
but I’m just here
alone and sad
if you could only see
what you meant to me
I need something good
to get me out of this funk
to show me that I could
have a good life
have a good day
remember why I’m here
help me find my way
cause being alone
is wrecking my mind
if you see me
please be kind
…. ugh
where no one can find me
Seven days
Of solid sadness
Sinking slipping sinking deep
Shooting guns
all a Blazin’
grazin’ skin
but I can’t sleep
I can only fade away
As the pieces creep on in
But where I am
Who knows where
I end and
you begin
I do…
and I waited for you
but I can’t get you to
I don’t know where you are
I don’t know where you hide
I am all alone here
Got no one by my side
I don’t need to be yours
If you aren’t really here
I don’t need to feel safe
When I live with all my fears
I have no choice….
Seven deadly sins
But none as deadly as your cold
even the book of right and wrong
all those lessons have grown old
Like me
I don’t know where you are
I don’t know where you hide
I don’t need to be anybody’s baby
When there’s no one by my side
You can take off to the city
You can take off to the shore
You can take off with my soul
I don’t need it anymore
I don’t need it anymore
I don’t need me anymore
some day after this one
there will be no place left for you to hide
that is when you will finally understand me
with no one by your side
like me
many years too late
many years lost
we fight to be right
but at what cost
This world is not made for lovers
This world is not made for the kind
This world is out for blood
out to kill your soul and steal your mind
this is no fun
Better to be dead
than always on the run
it’s not living
when your time is done
Like me
cold weak end night
I can use up all my breath
vocal chords shot to shit
run circles around
your same old delusions
I’m losing it
I cry out
but it falls on deaf dumb ears
it’s all a joke to you
laugh it up
you laugh
as I die
you only cry
crocodile tears
you are cold and dead inside
and
I have wasted two long years
on what?
you.
for what ?
this
mess
of stress
you cause
you create
you don’t want to see
what you do
because if you did
it would kill you
who you are now
I don’t know
I do not know
I don’t want know
I just want you to go
away
and stay away
I’m just someone
for you to blame
it’s all a game
you love to play
you
harm
hurt
hate
frustrate
suffocate
annihilate
triangulate
manipulate
intimidate
make no mistake
you sealed our fate
you do not care
you do not care
you do not care
you have no care
and now it’s too late
you wasted all my effort
you wasted so many days
with your destructive ways
you destroyed my heart and all the love I gave
careless and cruel
the way you behave
now there’s nothing left to save
you lost my love
you broke my heart
all the damage you’ve done
I need a fresh start
because
now I see
I’m not the one
for you
and you will never be the one for me
I loved you
but now that love
is gone.
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stuck
inside
a room
for days
on repeat
the same day plays
over and over
no fresh air
day after day
going nowhere
the less i live
the less I care
Listen to yourself
You know what you need
Listen to yourself
And feed
The starving parts of you
Before it’s too late
Left for dead
What a day
For wasting
Set your sights
Real low
Get stuck
And fuck
Around
Fuck it all
To hell
Shout and yell
Inside a box
Inside a cube
All day and all night
Watching the tube
Let all life
Be sucked out of me
Get sucked out of you
This is no way to live
This isn’t the way to be
Don’t you see
Yourself
Look in the mirror
That Pale and paste
Sans color face
Is me
Is you
Put down your phones
Go outside
Get some sun
Breathe in fresh air
And have some fun
Before we’re done
Say :
Farewell to the machine
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Creator
you want the moon.
well convince the sky
from one moment
imagined
you create
wonderful things.
embrace
her sweet kiss
and softly brushed lips
between words and beautiful breath
you follow this feeling
under electric moonlight
shimmering out of darkness
And into pure light
you touch the soul and spirit of everything
skin loves fever 