you

tonight you pushed me away
too far
too cold
and you don’t care to fix it
just be caring
about hearing and understanding the person
you supposedly care about
i won’t get close to someone who makes me feel so far away
day after day
i’ll just start acting like you
or better yet
i won’t
i just won’t
care to
put my heart out there
for you to crush
and choke
and cut down again

now you don’t have to listen
i don’t have any more feelings to share with you
cause i won’t have any more feelings
for you at all

miserableboy42

time for the tables to turn
it’s time for me to ignore
all that is you
cause all you seem to do
is find a reason
to make me wrong
so you can do what you do
and i’m not going to swallow that
shit you call love
when it’s all just abuse
i really loved you
and this is what you do
to me
who just wanted to be good to you
but even that
isn’t good enough for you
you look for any reason
to turn
what was true
into a lie
so you can do
whatever you want to do
you’d rather be right being wrong
the same ol’ story
your same old fucking song
it never mattered
how much or little
i give to you
the idea you have made up
in your wet drunken
sunken head
has killed my love
has left me mostly dead
instead of trust
you push and you push
until you bust
any good
that we had
some people love their misery
some people like being sad
and mad
and drunk
and sunk
and that someone is you
out to sea
this is you
but this ain’t me
your drowning
drowning in your own
sorrow
fucked up
and checked out
in your make believe
ugly world
that ain’t mine
this isn’t the time
to go down
to the hell
you call home

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I don’t even like you now

The flip

Of the switch

In you

Is not who

I want to share my time space and life with

Youuu spit nasty remarks

Throw daggers in the dark

Ignore everything you do

Everything you say

As you point your finger my way

Crazy maker

Soul taker

Biggest faker

I’ve ever known

You sure haven’t grown

You’ve shrunk into

A nothing you

Going nowhere fast

Nothing good with you

Ever lasts

You turned bad

And I have had

Enough

I am 100%

DONE

with you.

I shake you off

Time to move along

And walk away

Never looking back

Sleep watcher

I go over

To your house

And every time

You fall asleep

Maybe it’s me

You’re always waiting

For me to show up

And I’m always watching you sleep

right fighter (serial killer)

murderer
sickness
I am sick
but you are cancer
you think you have the answer
to everything
which you do not know
even though
you know me better than most
here’s a toast
to you
and your ability to kill
at will
and still
think you’re right
even when you’ve lost sight
blind as a bat
scaredy cat
with your proverbiale claws out
but worse
cause you curse
everyone you love
in your “passive aggressive
fucked up
fuck you ”
kind of way
that ain’t kind at all
do you get off on watching others
that you think are guilty- fall?
and let me pose another question
for you
that i know you’ll never answer
cause you’re too busy building up your stupid wall
is there a slight chance
just maybe
quite possibly…
you could be wrong at all?
ha
NEVER! NOT YOU!
stand by your convictions
fight to be right
just to be right
can’t even acknowledge left
or that you could be wrong
same old story
same old UGLY SAD PATHETIC song
spread your ill
and kill
the ones who ever loved you
OFF
SO YOU CAN SAY
IN YOUR FUCKED UP HEAD
“at least i’m right”

Another life time

I’m lonely

Without you

I wanna see your face

I don’t want to wait

Until the next life

For us to get it right

Summer evening

What’s the point

I know what it is but why does it have to be so difficult?

Put me in the Box

I used to call home

I feel sick when you do

I feel even worse without you

Push and pull

Yes and no

Come and go

All fucking day

One fight

Shouldn’t ruin what’s been right

Even though what’s wrong

Is bullshit annoying.

I go outside

And stare at the Brick wall

In my back yard

It’s missing a brick

The air feels cool

But the tension stays thick

I just want you to be happy

Can I be happy too?

Yes.

I can.

Buster and Mew R.I.P.

Nothing

You cared about me

Only when it served you

And now you do

Exactly what you always do

Nothing

New

Nothing at all

I’m the one

to break your fall?

When all you do

Is hide behind

Your stupid wall

After you start shit

And just quit

What a waste

Of everything

I gave

You did everything

(To destroy)

And left me nothing

Good at all

You need professional fucking help

happy Thursday

make your way

the years go by
so fast
warp speed
did I need…
all the crazy
all the bullshit???
I don’t understand
how so many years
have passed
in a flash of light
in the beat of a heart
sometimes I just want to go back
to back to the start
just yesterday
I was there
now I’m here
aged in the
age of lament
with all those years
and days
and moments
spent
with all the people
and places
and things
that went
along
now gone
time
the bittersweet
heartbreaker

what’s it all about
to be with
only then to be left without
it’s kind of a cruel joke
we are born
just to croak

all the pain and all the joy
we will never be here again
not like this
not this moment
not ever again
let the love in
let the bullshit go

you will miss this
you will miss
I miss it
more than you will ever know

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