Stop pulling at my heart strings

I don’t know

If you know anything

More than what you think

You know

When you think

You know

But that changes

Like you change

As quickly

As you change

I rearrange

The feelings in my heart

And the thoughts in my head

About you

Can’t stick it down with glue 

Cause I know tomorrow

It’s gonna be something new

And the minute I think

That everything’s in sync

I get knocked down out of the blue 

Like I never knew you too

Like everything I Thought

Was in

You suddenly undo

And to stop me from breaking in two

I have to separate 

And sedate

The state 

Of me

I’m in
-kyoko cole

2017

Happy  birthday to me? 

Another year 

And I really begin 

To realize 

To see 

With my eyes open 

! My Self awake 

That I cannot begin 

To make 

A life of anything

Going anywhere 

In a place full of nothing 

And no one who cares 

To be something 

Better

Better than they become 

After years of booze

And a lifetime of use 

One Can’t become anyone 

Stay the same 

And all you breathe is to die 

Never want change 

Then you can’t wonder  why 

Dumb some

Sit down stale
silence between
The artificial illuminations
That fill your screen
Smoke in mirrors
Eyes unclean

Eyes unseen 

Restless in waiting
For the never ever 

Never 

ever 

to come




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by kyoko cole

Skin

Static between my ears

Poker face 

To make you chase 

something else.  that isn’t there

I do what I do 

To throw you off 

To throw you in 

The opposite direction 

To minimize detection 

To eliminate inspection 

 

The big cover up 

A shout in the street

A shot in the dark

We greet the same different things

Over and over again

What we think is new 

Is really far from new 

and few 

Things really change

But really 

Deja-vu  pollution

Sprayed high & low
Gets Under your skin
Splat boom pow!

And in!

The Twisted desire 

Of life on fire

Bird on a wire 

Are we 

beyond the fantastic

Plastic

Cover Up? 

To keep up 

The illusion of  life and living

To keep us living life 

Thrift store paintings of
Memories that smell like gasoline

And mildew we once knew 

The Star kids
Cock fight dance

The indoor hours
real gone

Out of the red

And into the white

But not without a fight 
Pure war

Too much flavor
Comes crashing down 
Come Sunday

I confess 
All my sins that I repress
Change of face

And pace

And change of dress 

Can’t cover up 

The real  mess 

You really are 

by kyoko cole

One hell of a night 

After all is said and done 

You’re the only one… 

For me 🙂 

Bullshit 

You wanna trash this? 

You want me to hate you cause you’re still you

You might have quit the booze and the drugs

But you ain’t got much to show for it 

With a mouth like yours 

Why would anybody stick around? 

You’re too much 

Too little 

Too soon 

Too late 

Too fucking annoying. 

I don’t care to care to make it right 

Cause I can’t make you right 

When you think you do no wrong 

Spit your nasty shit at some other girl

Try and change someone else to be a necrotic jealous angry control freak like you. 

Cause it ain’t me babe 

It ain’t me 

Not good enough for me. 

You bring me down and i don’t really care about how you feel when you make me feel like shit

It’s time for me to quit 

This bullshit 

And not even think of you. 

As anything worth my time 

Cause you’re not 

And i’m just tired of you 

And everything you’re about 

A man is as broken as he wants to be

Oh you
You are not that broken
As you want to believe
As you want others to see
You are broken cause
Broken is who you choose to be
But I will have no part in your sob story
Wounded bird
Helpless victim
Hopeless soul
Bullshit  bit
You’ve got more fear than you’d like to admit
I really do but really don’t give a shit
And it’s you who breaks more good
Than he makes good

So don’t act like

I host the ghost of you

I can hear you in the silence 

Echoing my ears 

I see the trace of your face 

Everywhere and it brings me to tears 

Feels like years 

Oh it feels like years

So I host 

Your ghost

That haunts me

And my fears

Most everyday 

Long after you left

You just won’t go away

And I can’t rid myself of you, you, you

Oh you

Why don’t you stay 

A little bit longer

A little bit later 

A little more

A little  less

Look at me now 

You left me Alone in this mess 

I must confess:I find comfort in your shadow 

Of yesterday’s past 

But the more you linger 

The less I live
Oh you

You you 

Please just go away 

but he can’t be a man cause he doesn’t smoke the same cigarettes as me

walking through the store
couldn’t carry anymore
couldn’t care any less
as i do right now

in some other life
i took a knife
and carved 2 names on a tree

To preserve the time of we

Many moons ago when it was just you and me

And the cats

To see the  names and remember the life

We lived long before this

And remember the love

We both miss 

Over a life time ago

We knew someday we would meet again