I’d rather not

I’d rather not

Be around

People

Who I can’t trust

Cause they can’t trust

And because of that

They act in ways that

can’t be trusted.

This is not the kind of life I want to live

If this is a game for them

I don’t want to play

I’d rather not stay

Around

for the misfire

like a bird on a wire

From some liar

Or three

Just let me be

Free from all this toxicity

Cause that’s not who I am

And I don’t give a damn

If thats the way they wanna be

Just stay the fuck away from me.

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Drunk rambling

On the street

From some loud man

Who can

NOT

Handle his booze

But if I had to walk a mile in his shoes

Maybe I would

NOT

Be so quick to judge

But I’m judging his aggressive

Invasion

Of my space

This is

NOT

The time or place

To be a mess

Cause all it does is stress

Me out

And make me I’ll

And want to kill

But then that feeling passes through

From black to blue

Whoo Hoi!!!

Noise noise and more noise

I can read between the lines

I can read the language you don’t speak in words

The writing on the wall is very clear

If you wanted to

You would be

Here.

Big man

Little man

Where do you stand

Little boy

I wasn’t made

For you

to be your little toy

When you come down

If you ever really do

Blabber and smoke

Treating everything

Like it’s one big joke

Laugh it up

Laugh out loud

And while you’re at it

Act so proud

Who you trying to fool

Yourself?

Or the crowd?

Maybe both

In the sky above

On the ground below

Who you really are begins to show

And it hurts only cause I let you in

I’m pretty sure lying

Is a Cardinal sin

Where does the false you end

And the real you begin?

Next time you hear about me

It will be because I’m happy and married and with someone who treats me like I matter

And you

Will always be alone

Always

Cause of your doing

You don’t know what appreciation is and how gratitude feels

All you want to do is trash any good I’ve given you

And you’re not fair

And I don’t like the way you’re treating me

Right now

So this time you lose

I’m sorry but I tried

More than anyone ever has and ever would and now

You don’t get anything from me

You made me feel like less of a person just cause you’re a piece of shit

I hope when karma comes around to You

It hurts like hell cause that’s what you’ve done to everyone.

You don’t need to know your history to know that you’re the problem. Always have been

Always will be.

Goodbye for good.

Compunction junction

Regret and grief

Meet

On the street

Of my mind

And my heart

Crossing paths

They often crash

Into each other

Or clash

From opposing views

It’s the same old news

But if you could think and feel

How I think and feel

It might reveal

to you

Something you never knew

Maybw you just don’t want to know

Cause it would break your heart

When the one you love is broken…

He’s broken and I tried

And now he’s left me

Broken too

Why do I bother

He never did

He never does

He just acts like he is the only one who matters in this world

And all the love i had for him

Never mattered

He trashes

Like someone trashed him

Thank you for passing that down

I hope the next girl is much better

Cause obviously I never was

And I never will be now…

Kiss me like the ocean breeze

There’s nothing in my dreams

Just some ugly memories

From the heart

Just love me

Or don’t.

I’m not okay

But I am

The greater spirit

My guiding light

Show me something

Make me believe

Prove me wrong.

Ha!

I’ll fall in love again

So will you

And it will be terrible…

You

Kill me

If you just wanted me out of your life

You can be a man and say so

And not play all these stupid games.

I always wanted you there

I didn’t leave you.

You left me.

January 2019

I’ll just have to love you from a distance now. I hope everything works out for you

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