remember this

some people
you just can’t trust

your words are meaningless
you don’t have a heart

I’m beginning to see
that you deserved
to be treated the way you did
because you’re far worse
and you don’t even see it

you’re not smart
just because you retain information
doesn’t make you a smart man
you hurt people just because you can
and that’s why
I want nothing more to do with you

stupid people
talk a lot about nothing
judge people about things that they do themselves
and feel the need to put other people down

why would anyone want to keep someone like that around?

I’ve seen all I need to see
you are worthless to me
you’re just another asshole
unaware of yourself
and shitty to everyone else

I rid myself of you
your ugly inside
has made you so ugly outside

I hope you see
what a bad person you really are.

just go back to where you came from
you make this world an ugly place
you are a waste
of a person

everything you do
will come back to you
mark my fucking words

and you wonder why
she treated you the way she did
now I KNOW why
cause you’re a BAD HUMAN BEING

AND NOT A TRUE FRIEND

YOU’RE JUST GOOOD AT PLAYING PRETEND

everything you do
is coming back to you

you need to suffer
and feel more pain
or do the world a favor and
just drink yourself to death

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2 thoughts on “remember this”

I don’t think people insist on being ugly inside and out. I think they don’t think about how they’re being at all. and that’s a problem. no awareness because that would be too much for their egg shell egos to take. it all boils down someone who is so selfish and inconsiderate- and only cares about what they’re going through – that they can’t even see what they’re doing to a person who actually cared. I gave him kindness, care and safety and all he did was fuck it up by not appreciating my time, my love, my care, my openness – all he thinks about is how his pain is more important than anyone else’s. THAT’S UGLY. Anytime I would try to express my feelings he took it like I was playing the victim… when in reality – HE ACTS LIKE THE VICTIM ALL THE TIME. I tried to connect but he build walls. He made it impossible to work it out because he doesn’t want to deal with anything that he doesn’t like (because it may be true) he doesn’t want to deal with anything that isn’t good for his ego. he’s hurt by being left and discarded by someone he loved/loves… yet can’t appreciate someone who tries – when things get hard – he always treats me like I’m the problem and my “problems” are too much for him to deal with because he cannot deal with anything that may hurt his fragile ego – so he gives up and discards me. that is ugly. I’ve had a hard life. I wish I had a family- yet he does and treats me like I’m a burden when I speak about the struggles I go through every fucking day- just trying to navigate this world without having guidance or support or someone I can really count on. I have friends who are family but fuck…. I wonder if he can even comprehend how it must feel – never having a mother that I could trust, family I could count on, who actually loved me. I’m not a victim but it’s not easy. He became ugly when he didn’t appreciate me and the little things I would do to make him feel wanted and safe. IT’S UGLY WHEN A MAN DOESN’T ACT LIKE A MAN… AND STARTS A FIGHT WHEN I BRING UP MY NEEDS- LIKE MY NEEDS ARE TOO MUCH YET THESE ARE THINGS THAT MOST PE0PLE JUST GIVE NATURALLY. it’s ugly when I finally react and then I’m the one to blame for everything and it gives him a reason to give up. THAT’S UGLY. I gave love and got ignored. I gave love and he got with someone else. I gave love and got ridiculed for expressing any of my feelings until I snapped and reacted in a way that wasn’t the best. and then he gives up. lol.. my message to him is:
thank you for teaching me an important lesson- I gave you good and you ruined it from the start. I don’t give up on people unless they are so selfish, careless heartless AND unaware that it’s pointless for me to give you any more of my good because you hurt and trash it anyways. You are the kind of person that hurts someone and then hurts them even more when they finally are fed up and lose it.

I should thank him really. the ugly I saw in him – brought out the ugly in me- and that’s not the way I ever want to be again. also he just made room for someone better – to come around.

EVERYONE HAS AN UGLY SIDE TO THEM. BUT SOMEONE WHO IS TRULY UGLY IS SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T CARE ABOUT THE OTHER PERSON INVOLVED -PAST THE POINT OF WHAT THAT OTHER PERSON CAN DO FOR THEM. UGLY is PEOPLE WHO TAKE ALL YOUR GOOD… BUT BAIL THE SECOND THEY’RE NOT GETTING WHAT THEY WANT AND THINGS AREN’T EASY. THAT’S WHAT UGLY IS. and our world has made everyone think being selfish and running away from everything that isn’t “good vibes only” (*eye roll*)- is a good thing. ha that makes no sense. THAT’S UGLY. NOT GETTING YOUR WAY SO YOU RUN AWAY – MAKING THE OTHER PERSON FEEL ABANDONED AND UNIMPORTANT IS REALLY HEALTHY (I’M BEING SARCASTIC OBVIOUSLY) AND MAKES THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE. nope it’s making this world ugly too. a bunch of narcissists who have so many ways to get their instant gratification fix- they don’t have time to care about the people around them that actually gave a fuck because they can’t see what they have when they’re too busy swiping to the next person – they will do the same thing to – and the cycle repeats over and over.
sorry for the rant
but it’s true

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