Oh that’s what friends are for

My friend asked me why I would want him

And I said, “Want? No. No. No. Wanted… past tense. I’ve remembered who I am and who I am doesn’t want any of him.”

Sometimes us girls can get stupid and tripped up in a moment over someone that when given a little space – we are able to see the situation more clearly.

And I saw the situation and who he really is

I don’t know what I was thinking.

Or what I saw in him that was even good for me.

My friend said to me “I know you. You’re passionate, kind, caring, loving, thoughtful, a little feisty at times- but at least I know how you feel instead of having to guess if something’s wrong- you’re intuitive, smart, creative, funny and loyal As fuck. You are an artist. You made choices that were good for you and You never needed to be with someone to feel complete. If you wanted to be with someone you could. If you wanted to get married you would have. There are many amazing guys you could be with right now if you wanted to but you don’t. You enjoy your space. I’m surprised you even went out with someone who acts like you should be grateful for the crumbs he throws you.”

I thanked her. She was right. I can’t believe it either

A woman like me is only good to a man who is willing to give back.

Who treats her with respect

And he didn’t

So I stopped being respectful back

He set the guidelines by his actions

I lost respect for him

And treated him the way he treated me

Now I feel nothing for him except a yuck that i won’t have in my life again

Besides i see how he treats people that actually want him

LIKE SHIT

Why would I desire any part of it?

But I think he wants someone who doesn’t want him or someone who just leaves him for someone else.

So that us what he will have.

That’s what he deserves.

I don’t care

That’s what he deserves.

This will be my last post about him. It’s made me feel better to write it out but I usually only write about the things I care about and he is not one of them. Goodbye