Author: b-side junkie

Is an I’ve ever wanted was some consistency in my life from someone

I know you felt that with someone at some point

It sucks to not be able to count on anyone

You give a piece of yourself to

And they can’t even see

How little I ask for…

In return

You are not my person

All you’ve give me

Was the fear to ever give that part of me

To someone who can’t even give the bare minimum back.

But you act like I ask for too much

When what have you ever done for me just because you wanted to? Just because you cared? Just becsuse you wanted to see make me happy just to make me happy- without wanting anything in return.

You can’t even communicate just to help make me feel safe

You always do what you want

Has anyone’s feelings every mattered to you- until you made them feel like they had to go away?

You hurt people

By being so not fully there

And I can’t pretend like that’s okay

I am nice

But you don’t care about me the way I care about you

And you’ve exhausted my love and care.

When it’s you crying because you gave a part of yourself to someone who couldn’t care less about how you feel

You won’t be better

You’ll just be selfish

Becsuse you dint think that someone could actually love you and be hurt by the things you do (or don’t do)

There’s no point even trying with you.

And when shit stops working out for you

You can feel how you’ve made me feel

Seems like that’s the only way you learn

Also I said I wanted to see you but my room was a mess

Wtf

Fuck it

I have people who appreciate me

That can take care of both things I need right now.

Here I go. ,.

Like you.

But it’s the way you talk to me and not the things you say

That have pushed me away

Goodnight.

I’M NOT GOING TO BE NICE

OR CARE

I’M GOING TO PLAY STUPID

AND BE A FUCKING ASS

JUST LIKE EVERYONE IS WHEN THEY DON’T NEED SOMETHING FROM ME

SCREW ALL OF THE USERS

JUST A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT LOSERS.

WHO NEED ME WHEN THEY NEED TO BE UNDERSTOODR

OR ARE NEEDY OF SOMETHING FROM ME

BUT WHEN I’M IN NEED

THEY ACT LIKE THEY ARE STUPID

AND LIKE I’M NOTHING

FUVK IT

GO GET YOUR MONEY

OR YOUR SYMPATHY

FROM SOME OTHER PERSON

I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR CARELESS PEOPLE LIKE ALL OF YOU

Careless words
From someone who knows nothing
About what I do
Shows how careless you are about keeping a relationship with someone who’s only been nice to you and whose been there for you when you’re not so great yourself
Actually to be honest ( since you don’t care about feelings so why should I?)
You’re not in the greatest shape either
And you’re not at perfect as you tell people they should be
I run around all day
Work my ass off
Make time to be creative
Have self awareness
Have love and care without judgement
And know my place
I would keep something that I know would hurt you
Maybe you should look in the mirror and see yourself and worry about that before
You want to pick me apart when I’ve never done that to you
Who the fuck do you think you are?
You’re no expert in health and wellness
I’m hurt because I thought you were better than this
Becsuse you had been treated similar to the way you treated me today
And all I was trying to do was slow you some goodness and kindness
And acceptance
And for what?
So you can say shit that has nothing to do with helping me
All it does is harm and hurt me.
And worst of all
You would rather be right
And say whatever you want that you know is hurtful
When no one asked you
But even worse is that you would rather say whatever you want just because you can
Without thinking about how it might make me feel
Because you don’t care about how you make me feel
You only care about acting like you know me better than I know myself
Which is so not true
Maybe your ex said what she said because she did not care about hurting you
And who wants to be with someone like that
Not me
Ruin all your relationships by doing exactly what you don’t like being done to you – to people who actually treat you well
I appreciate kindness and care
And that equates to love
If you can’t be kind or caring to someone
Then you really don’t need
That person to be around you at all
Find someone who treats you like shit
That seems to be what you like anyways
And you’re sorry means nothing when it’s backed up by an excuse to why you feel justified to say whatever you feel without thinking about how you make the person. If you cared. You would think about those things and not say something that makes them feel less loved and less accepted and more judged.

In the end, it’s your responsibility. I was kind and accepting, and that’s my mistake.

No one cares anyways

I started to write about you
but then I realized
there’s nothing to say
about someone who wastes
their life away.

blah

hahahaha

I’m sick of putting my needs on the shelf

I’m not stupid

Fuck this world

And users

And liars

You call me selfish

Yet you don’t want to see

That you are doing something

That is selfish too

I give up

There is no point in trying

People are no good

That includes me

But at least

I’m not making excuses for it

I’m ending the problem

Which you say is me.

Don’t trust people who are dangerous

Don’t trust people who treat you nice when they want something from you

And then treat you like you’re too skinny for too much becsuse you actually believed them

People are not good

Users are users

You can’t change someone’s character

But you can

Decide if this is all worth it

And for me

I’m tired

And would rather

Just not exist.

I’m sorry that most of you won’t understand that

But I don’t need you to understand that part

When you didn’t care to understand the part of me

That tried.

Weird is exotic

I try to preserve things

But they just get torn

And I am just worn

Down

To

Bits.

It’s

Gotten

Quite

Old.

So I’ll fold

Into

The depths

Of the line you’ve drawn

Become unseen

In between

The pop of the

Screen (more watched more viewed)

The more popular pops out

And the odd of me

No one wants to really see

I am the odd man out

Stuck inside the walls of

Doubt and

Duality.

-k.c.

:(

I can push people away when I don’t like something

Don’t let any man dick you around with his childish Bullshit. You don’t get your way. You act like a fuck. We’ll I’m going to get mine now. Selfish selfish selfish and that’s how you lose me. You don’t care? Good. Becsuse i don’t need your kind of “care” which is more like careless.