With pen in hand
I walk
With
Without
I am not with you
This is what you want
Then this is what you get
You are free
From me
This is nothing new
Remove
Forget
Set
the clock back
To before
I am nothing
And nothing more
To you
Wish it away
Burn it away
Bleed it out
Out
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Finished all my school work
Now it’s almost the end of the day
There is nothing I can do
Nothing I can say
One day begins and ends
And blends
Into the month
It’s almost been a year
What’s happening now?
Is not very clear
I can’t trust people
Who cannot be trusted
That seems to be
Almost everyone
Ha you got busted!
Nowhere left to run
Nowhere left to run
Blur. Blur
Uh huh Her
Your eyes and head
Play tricks on you
Everything you thought
You knew
Is wrong
But
It’s me who does not belong
I don’t belong
Take another month
Take Another year
By the time
The news hits your ear
It’s been a long time gone
You did this one too many times
To make it all be okay
now
It won’t ever be okay again
It’s around the corner
Regret is coming round the bend
For you
I’ve had enough
And where I’m going
You can’t take regret along with you
When these words have gained years in wisdom
When these words begin to fade
Without a trail of breadcrumbs
To lead the way
There is no way
Just a shallow grave
Somewhere
Maybe
But no more
Of my Love
For you to throw away
When this stops
remember me
that day
Pinch yourself
It’s not a dream
Fade out
You try to scream
But nothing comes out
The ship sank
But The captain didn’t go down with the boat
Cowards
Fakes
Liars
And cheats
Always seem to stay afloat
This place must be
Pretty close to hell
I don’t want to buy
The shit you’re trying to sell
Beam me up Scotty
its about that time
I can’t say I’m gonna miss
This
So I won’t
Sat here all night
And waited to see
What you would do
But you didn’t do anything
You told me I’d been replaced
You laugh in my face
You throw me away
You trash my love
And beat down my heart
I tried to deal
I tried to be okay
But the fact that it’s so easy for you
To discard me
Makes me feel
The worst possible way
I don’t know what to say
I guess i have nothing left
To do
To say
It’s better to just go away
you’re never there
when i needed you
You’re never there
…
You broke me
You dangle love by a string you like to tug away
I’ve given you so much time
To change
To say
Something
Anything
But inatead you
Ignore
Me
I’m really hurt
And you need to learn
What you do
Hurts people
And makes them go away for good.
I’m sorry you don’t understand
…
Me
You have broken my heart
conversations with myself
when I’m left
with the mess
of twisted / tangled
discard
I hate this
I wish you hated it too
so much that you would just
be here
but that is not the way it is
ever.
god…
I’m sad
I’m fucking sad
that this is how it is
what kind of god wants to see people suffer over and over and over and over again? it’s never ending
the punishment doesn’t fit the crime. – the non existent crime.
living
ha
what kind of people want to see others hurt?
a sadistic god
creating sadistic people
I want off your fucking crazy train
coo coo ca Choo Choo
know who the real enemy is
or do “BIG” men like to piss on little trees
cause they have small dicks
I don’t fucking know
and I don’t fucking care
I’ve had enough
it seems stupid
and pointless
to keep on going and going in a world-
in a life
that is suffering
no.
you win
Throw me a bone
Give me a fucking break
I’m giving up.
There is no other way
To make me feel whole again
You win
You never really loved me.
It’s okay.
you hurt my heart
but it’s happened before
so if you’re trying to break me
(you already have)
if you’re trying to make me
(someone I’m not)
if you don’t get your way
then you’re done
if I don’t say
sorry all the time
for things I’m not sorry for
yet you never apologize for anything
you do
then why am I trying so hard
to be with you?
you’re not trying to be with me
you’re just trying to make me do what you want
and I need to be good to myself
(you’ll never be)
I appreciate the things you’ve done for me
but it doesn’t take away
all the things you take away
from my soul
how would you feel?
I don’t think you do
you have no empathy
so I don’t think you can understand
(anyone other than yourself)
whatever the case is.
love isn’t what you give
love isn’t what I feel from you
you want control.
you need to always be right
even when you act wrong
there is no compromise
or respect from you
loving you
is killing me
and YOU WILL NEVER SEE
(yourself)
when all you see
is the wrong
and the bad
of me (that you believe)
I know I’m more than you allow me to be
and now I see
that you’ll never see
how you are.
and people like you never change
it’s easier to blame me for everything
than to see yourself and change.
the easy way out is to leave
and that’s all you ever do
so this time I’m not stopping you
For All the times you don’t show an effort
You’re making me care less
And I’m not gonna go out of my way to show you what you never show me on your own.
Think about that
Why would i?
I don’t see anything from you that is keeping me around
You want fair but you never give it
