Games you play. Traps you set

Done

Be better

Act like an adult

If you are so aware

If you care

I’m here

If you can’t do it

Then I can’t do this

Someone will appreciate me

Since you obviously do not.

Peace-

Games you play. Traps you set

Done

Be better

Act like an adult

If you are so aware

If you care

I’m here

If you can’t do it

Then I can’t do this

Someone will appreciate me

Since you obviously do not.

Peace-

preperation before I go

I’m not okay

you’re absent

you’re not present

you are checked out

you’re not here

and I’m tired of people like you

who

I can’t count on

to really be

who they say or think they are

tired of people who don’t show me they give a fuck

if I’m here or not

no consistency

not here

and this time

you went to far

this time

you have made

it very clear to me

that I

should be the one

who’s not here

anymore

You think it’s ok

To do this

I put my faith in you

And you do this

Over what?

Something so stupid and insignificant

After everything

My heart is in it

And you do this?

This is not OK

This time it’s not okay

And I’m not okay

That’s all.

But you destroyed me

For the last time.

Laugh at this.

Ha

I’m not laughing

I’m leaving

I have nothing to live for

This is what

I never wanted to feel again

But this time

Will be the last

Things come and go so fast

I’m always left behind

Without a thought

Oh well

You got

What you wanted

At my expense

But I’m out

My heart hurts too much

And it’s all coming to a vicious end anyways

Nothing good ever stays

So long. .. Long long

Gone

Thank you

Goodnight

Goodbye

Bye bye

Fly fly

Sigh sigh

Die die

Bye

Sometimes I wish

You could be as wonderful as you are

When we are together

And laughing

And loving

Moments like these that are more difficult

Don’t need to stay this way

But you need to make an effort and dedicate yourself to making it better – for each other.

Not give up

Like you always do

Giving up when it gets hard is so easy and weak.

I didn’t think that would be you

But I guess I was wrong.

Sometimes I wish

You could be as wonderful as you are

When we are together

And laughing

And loving

Moments like these that are more difficult

Don’t need to stay this way

But you need to make an effort and dedicate yourself to making it better – for each other.

Not give up

Like you always do

Giving up when it gets hard is so easy and weak.

I didn’t think that would be you

But I guess I was wrong.

Sad

Do you want me to take

Your distespect and rage?

Be nervous and scared to say a peep

afraid to speak up

Cause you made me that way

Even when you’re cutting deep?

And throwing a fit

It’s not okay to lose your shit

I love you

But you have to show some respect

pick and choose your battles

And know the difference between

a full on war

And just A little spat

But it can never be just that

with you

It is always a full force attack

A knife in the back

This shit is whack

It’s okay to not get along

Or disagree

Without it always having to be

so final

So fatal

So mean

It’s not just black and white

It doesn’t always need you to fight

And lose sight

If what’s important and good

Just because your ego gets in the way

I want to stay

Together

But it can’t be just me

Trying all the time

And then getting beat down

By the hate that takes over you

I wish you knew

How it feels to deal with you that way

I can only do so much

When you don’t do anything to make it right

Right now

But you can’t treat me like that

And expect me to keep on trying all the time for it to get worked out when you don’t try at all.

What if i acted the way you did to you and you were me?

I wonder if you would finally see

How it feels

What it’s like

And focus on all the things we have that’s good

Instead of looking for what’s wrong or bad

I think when someone speaks and is sharing something with someone else – if the other person listening is really interested in what the person sharing has to say will listen and try to find a way to related and shares back how they relate as a way to convey that they understand or are trying to understand . That’s not trying to take away anything from the person sharing. It’s a way of connecting

Now if one person expressing themselves to another or sharing something with another gets a reaction or is immediately cut off and not listened to it creates a lack of connection and makes the person trying to share feel unimportant or not listened to. There’s no listening or relating or connecting.

If someone is sharing something to someone else as a way of getting to teach the other person something – it’s very important to not point out faults in the person they are trying to help. It’s not helpful when one person acts like they know everything about the situation the other is going through. Especially when they don’t listen to the specific situation or experience and feelings of the person they are trying to “help”

It’s not that the person trying to help had any bad intentions they just aren’t effectively teaching anything. It’s their approach that creates tension.

In the same regard the person they are trying to teach isn’t just “not ready” or “not listening” or “un-teachable” most likely they feel attacked or don’t feel open to hearing what someone with that kind of approach has to say especially when the person trying to help doesn’t care to listen to how they feel or what they want to express.

Both aren’t wrong.

However the person wanting to help and teach has to be aware of their approach and deliverance in order for them to actually get through or reach the person they are trying to help

It should be a conversation that comes from the heart

Practicing radical acceptance

The more you try to push someone to change or to listen to you cause you think you know better – the less someone wants to listen.

And no one wants to listen to someone who doesn’t listen to them in return

Tonight

Was a great night

Where is my home?

Why do I feel like I’m not home?

I kept busy today

Had a lot to do

But I still don’t feel at home

I am just fine

I am just okay

I am great

Down in the park is playing

And people are talking

Katy put the shelf I bought for under my bathroom sink together

No one else could figure it out

I played drums until my fingers bled

I made a lot of drinks

And didn’t wear any makeup

Everything was nice tonight

But I still don’t feel at home

Why don’t i feel at home?

Wanna go for a ride?

Brush it

Under

The rug

That is your cover

You don’t have to be a lover

But a hater?

Be more original

Or don’t be at all

Die by the morning

The minute I enter

A different zip code

I have already begun

Mourning you.

I will not attend your funeral

Wearing robes of black

Draped down to the ground

And you even further below

I will not shed a tear

In public

I will not visit your grave

Jealous eyes

Are watching

Me

Forgetting you

They won’t be saved

The ground we walk on

Is shifting

Ever so slightly

The things you’ve done

Aren’t taken so lightly

It’s time to start a new

Goodbye

Rest well

For the long sleep

And the long farewell

This finale is long overdo