He shows his ugly face

When he thinks I am not around

But here i am

And there you are

Like the cold reptile you are

It’s funny how I can see you

So clearly now

For the heartless

Whatever the fuck you are

Go back to the planet or shit hole you came from

No body wants you

The real you is ugly

And dead inside

He is cold

Dead inside

I doubt that

But I doubt that he cares

And so be it

I do not wish him any harm

Nor do I wish for his love

Cause it’s a struggle

Always a struggle

And in my time

Of dying

He shows his true colors

Which is no color at all

Void

Vacuum eyes

Hardened soul

Angry and nasty

And no strength to say sorry

Cause he doesn’t know what sorry is

He believes he is right to act like he does

And it’s sad

Cause he’s anything but right

Or good

Or anyone

I would ever want to be there for again

Just a one sided thing

He takes the souls from kind loving hearts

Pretends for awhile

As long as he must

To get what he wants

But has no intention

Of really giving or trying back

And who would want that?

Who would want his real self?

Ugly trying to make the ones around him just as ugly

Pull it out

Push any good away

Well Away is where I want to stay.

He leave people feeling less

Than they are

But it’s he

Who is less

And I confess

That I once loved

The part he plays

Beware of actors who do it for a living

Who do it for life

They will aways stab you in the back

With their little coward knife

I wish him well

But he is someone

No one will ever truly know

Not even..himself

I’d rather be alone in my time.of.grief

Than to be around a fake

Cruel fool

Who doesn’t give a fuck about anyone or anything other than his own stupid self.

I’ve never met a man so stupid

Going through days wasting his life stupid nothing life away.

words opera

for a moment

from that time

the only miracle i took

. fell even.

noise with intercedes

appear to be

playing you.

But me playing

Hardball

Everyone too

my name here

with madness

Is you.

i commit.

awkwardly there is the odd of perfection

double dancing the speed of way

we the model

crossing so many moons

is this the end?

she pondered

After all

Things are without speaking

Thanks

o a chamber

the eyes of strange

become, nervous

to me

ndered

after things are

without speaking.

thanks

to a chamber

the eyes of strange

become, nervous

to me

This is the end

Beautiful losers

Nothing

Blank

Weeping

-kyoko cole

I’m having a hard time

Eyelashes

Stashes

Hope crashes

To the sea

What will be

Is me

In this world

without

He

And I can’t bare to imagine

Never seeing his face

In this place again.

I don’t care

To share

Myself today

Tomorrow

Or For awhile

Not For as far as I can see

Me to

For however many number of days

I can stand to put myself through

Without standing at all

You can’t stand while you fall

I can’t get out of my bed

I can’t get out of my head

I’m stuck

And sick

And in the suck

Out of luck

want to kick it

Want flick it

Want to cut it

Want to blow it’s

Pretty little pimple head right off

This mess

Is making me

Depressed

And the more I regress

The more pain I feel

I become less and less

Of a person

Who’s got a hold

Of it all

While everything is ripping at the seams

I’d rather stay down

In dreams

Than to face

Another day

Living life now this way

I’d rather drown in it

Than struggle to stay a float

Skeletons belly dead

And I’m only seeing red

Carefully cut

Open

Insides out

forever with doubt

And for the rest of my days without

My friend

who’s shell is on the table

who’s soul is lost out there

Somewhere

who knows…

Who cares….

I do

Miss you

That you need to be so mean

On a day

Where I lost

Someone who meant a lot

If I had lost you

I’d be worse

But you only see

The attention i give

Someone

I’ll never see again

And you fail to see

The attention i constantly give you

If I fail to give it for a moment

The way you desire it

But never communicate you desire it

You’re a child

Not a man

You will never

Understand

How much it hurts

To have to deal with this

And then to have to have to deal with you

But i love you

Bit you don’t care

And you don’t try

And you don’t show

And you don’t do anything

That makes me feel

Like I matter

At the very least

If you love me

Than love me fully

Who cares about looking like a fool

?

If you love me and I do something foolish

I’m the one who looks like the fool

Not you

But don’t go back and fourth and be fickle with your feelings

I’m not

I just don’t want to be treated like a punching bag

Tonight

I can’t stand on my own

Without shaking

I can’t talk

Without my voice quivering

I dint know what to do

Without breaking down

And I’m alone

Without you.

And you don’t even care to try to be any other way than mean

So what can i do?

I have to deal with losing my best friend

And losing my love

While still maintaining my self and self worth

Without knowing really how

I’m lost

I’m lonely

And I’m aching

And I don’t know how to make it stop

Maybe tomorrow

Ill know what to do

Or I won’t feel the way i feel now

Maybe not

But i don’t know how

To get through

The next few hours

Of being alone with myself

Until i finally pass out

With the feelings i have right now

And still make it out okay

Cause I’m not okay

And I’m not that strong

I’m not as strong as you may think

I’m not strong at all

Right now

I’m not much

More

Than just

Some stretched leather

Stitched up around some stuffing

There for you to punch

Left for you to ignore

Cobwebs have cobwebs

And I have the feeling

Of a memory

That has now become old

That only I continue to hold

That you have long ago sold

For cheap thrills and lies

….

I’ve never felt so lonely

As I do right now

…

And I am alone