I was vulnerable
I let my guard down
with you
even though I’ve been hurt before
you were so scared to hurt again
yet here I am
and I don’t know why
I’m so tired
but I can’t sleep
knowing that you’re right there
and I’m here
but we are so far apart
why do I even try?
maybe that is the reason why…
I am here again.
-k.c.
in a dream
you were there
and it was the same you
angry
abusive
loud
mean
explosive
but in my dream it didn’t bother me
it made me uncomfortable and uneasy
I said goodbye to you
and I didn’t feel anything
when I woke up
I didn’t care no longer cared
I no longer had love for you
I rarely think anyone is a waste of time
but you really wasted my time-
and I wish I would have saw you
the way you really are before the years of effort and abuse
I don’t care if you hate me
I don’t care if you forget me
you gave me nothing to hold onto
nothing to miss
nothing good to want back again…
except for myself
into the trees
lovers
you look empty
the love
might just change like lies
the changes catch
unborn truth
the voices speak just like you
the trace of silence
was real
with this feeling
from the last moment
without knowing
all you need
the lonely
-after hour anxiety
some little bugs eat
you ask one question
and hide before it can get to you
child distract him
absolutely invisible
there were cries
waiting for the night
the scent collects
but here this idea comes
and you need sleep and affection
so here it gets lost
the only fatality
made forgetting more melancholy
not sudden and nothing happened
this sinking evil illusion
life disappears
the voice here
never existed
this false face
tears softly and challenges
the real
all eyes had felt
your denial
this useless existence
away with the night
you who come from the dark-
unusual
into this light-
strange
your love
was enough
above the sky
you can see
that this is the end
whispering time
hear the word
hear our language
a sudden
taste of
mystic too
many must look
not dwell
under the fall
without the curtain
glow like you
purple would have understood
the holding hand
the mouth both interested and obsessed
for you
the black was still light
this face and soul the same
everything around you
faded and
remained
slippery
love
shake you out
out
out
this was absolutely different
your heart vibrations smile
flames from the body
will not be tamed
they are beautiful
lovely but cursed
as you
find them new meaning
I’ll remind you
of my kisses
and continue life mute
-kyoko cole
dark fever growl
you scream and howl
wild by night
I lose sight.
Where did you go?
something I may never know
or most likely I already do
I sit and watch
sleepless nights
fall over me.
I wish I had the feel
I feel too much
I don’t feel at all
I wonder which one
is real.
-Kyoko Cole
Maybe I’m here
Without any way
In knowing how to
Do the things I want to do
Say the words I want to say
Be the me I want to be
I just don’t know
How to feel comfortable
Being me
Me being me being me being me being me being me
With pen in hand
I walk
With
Without
I am not with you
This is what you want
Then this is what you get
You are free
From me
This is nothing new
Remove
Forget
Set
the clock back
To before
I am nothing
And nothing more
To you
Wish it away
Burn it away
Bleed it out
Out
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Finished all my school work
Now it’s almost the end of the day
There is nothing I can do
Nothing I can say
One day begins and ends
And blends
Into the month
It’s almost been a year
What’s happening now?
Is not very clear
I can’t trust people
Who cannot be trusted
That seems to be
Almost everyone
Ha you got busted!
Nowhere left to run
Nowhere left to run
Blur. Blur
Uh huh Her
Your eyes and head
Play tricks on you
Everything you thought
You knew
Is wrong
But
It’s me who does not belong
I don’t belong
Take another month
Take Another year
By the time
The news hits your ear
It’s been a long time gone
You did this one too many times
To make it all be okay
now
It won’t ever be okay again
It’s around the corner
Regret is coming round the bend
For you
I’ve had enough
And where I’m going
You can’t take regret along with you
When these words have gained years in wisdom
When these words begin to fade
Without a trail of breadcrumbs
To lead the way
There is no way
Just a shallow grave
Somewhere
Maybe
But no more
Of my Love
For you to throw away
When this stops
remember me
that day
Pinch yourself
It’s not a dream
Fade out
You try to scream
But nothing comes out
The ship sank
But The captain didn’t go down with the boat
Cowards
Fakes
Liars
And cheats
Always seem to stay afloat
This place must be
Pretty close to hell
I don’t want to buy
The shit you’re trying to sell
Beam me up Scotty
its about that time
I can’t say I’m gonna miss
This
So I won’t
Sat here all night
And waited to see
What you would do
But you didn’t do anything
You told me I’d been replaced
You laugh in my face
You throw me away
You trash my love
And beat down my heart
I tried to deal
I tried to be okay
But the fact that it’s so easy for you
To discard me
Makes me feel
The worst possible way
I don’t know what to say
I guess i have nothing left
To do
To say
It’s better to just go away
you’re never there
when i needed you
You’re never there
…
You broke me
You dangle love by a string you like to tug away
I’ve given you so much time
To change
To say
Something
Anything
But inatead you
Ignore
Me
I’m really hurt
And you need to learn
What you do
Hurts people
And makes them go away for good.
I’m sorry you don’t understand
…
Me
You have broken my heart
