All I’ve ever wanted

Was to be important enough

To someone

That they would think about me

Want to understand

Try to understand

Understand they don’t understand

And cause of that understand

I know I’m good

I know I’m special

I know I’m worth it

Even if other people don’t

But my one wish

Is to have someone

On my side

Who loves me enough

To understand how much that effort and time and desire and love

Means the world to me

without that

I cease to grow

I’m a broken

Little girl

Inside my almost too old for anything good self

I know what I have inside me

I know the great things I am

But I also know

I give a lot to people who don’t want to give back

Plus I know that I dint know how to change that

and I also know that I’m to lonely and sad to keep trying

You will think I’m just being drama

But I’m not being dramatic

I’m losing hope

In people and in relationships

And in love

And that’s something I can’t exist without

I dint want to exist without

Caring is so much more than just 2 days of giving me what I want to say the words or make me believe you care

When the rest of the time

You’re not there

Makes it feel cheap

Like I feel cheap right now

I’m at the edge

Closer to the side

Of giving up


It’s not blame

I’ve tried so hard to understand you

You don’t know

Cause I think about it when I’m alone

And I’m alone a lot

Like right now

You don’t even try to understand me

You tell me I’m just making A big deal

Or you tell me how I feel

That doesn’t support

That invalidates

And why the hell

Would I feel anything but bad

When you do the things

That would make anyone sad

What I do

Isn’t blame

For that I have myself

What I do is share

How you can make me feel sometimes

So maybe you would be more aware

But you aren’t

Cause you don’t care

To see anything wrong with you

You only want to see what’s wrong with me

And I know already what my problems are

But why

Do you have

To make me feel worse

By doing something you know makes me feel worse.

Cause I’ve told you it makes me feel worse

And you just do them

Like nothing

I feel like nothing right now

You aren’t my only reason

For why I want to give up

But you’re adding to it

By not even trying to see my side of things

And my side does matter

But not to you

Not to many

And giving up

Seems so much more loving

Than having to feel

The way you’re reaction or lack of reaction

Is making me feel right now