Noise noise and more noise

I can read between the lines

I can read the language you don’t speak in words

The writing on the wall is very clear

If you wanted to

You would be

Here.

Big man

Little man

Where do you stand

Little boy

I wasn’t made

For you

to be your little toy

When you come down

If you ever really do

Blabber and smoke

Treating everything

Like it’s one big joke

Laugh it up

Laugh out loud

And while you’re at it

Act so proud

Who you trying to fool

Yourself?

Or the crowd?

Maybe both

In the sky above

On the ground below

Who you really are begins to show

And it hurts only cause I let you in

I’m pretty sure lying

Is a Cardinal sin

Where does the false you end

And the real you begin?

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When the one you love is broken…

He’s broken and I tried

And now he’s left me

Broken too

Why do I bother

He never did

He never does

He just acts like he is the only one who matters in this world

And all the love i had for him

Never mattered

He trashes

Like someone trashed him

Thank you for passing that down

I hope the next girl is much better

Cause obviously I never was

And I never will be now…

From the heart

Just love me

Or don’t.

I’m not okay

But I am

The greater spirit

My guiding light

Show me something

Make me believe

Prove me wrong.

Ha!

I’ll fall in love again

So will you

And it will be terrible…

You

Kill me

If you just wanted me out of your life

You can be a man and say so

And not play all these stupid games.

I always wanted you there

I didn’t leave you.

You left me.

January 2019

I’ll just have to love you from a distance now. I hope everything works out for you

en attendant de nous revoir

Don’t you worry your ugly little head

I got enough pills

For the kills

Hey but you get your kicks and thrills

On taking your shit out

On me

And if it’s not me

It’s someone else

Which is not cool

But it ain’t my fight to fight

And I ain’t got the right

To play god

When he doesn’t exist

But what does is the evil

That LIES inside of you

Whoever the fuck you are

Whoever the fuck I was

You’ll never know again

Punching bag

The stress you have on a daily basis

Is not my fault

But still I seem to be the one

You take it out on

And you don’t care to see that you do that

It affects me

And directs me

Down

To a lower place

To a darker space

Than I need to be

Why can’t you see

Yourself

And have a little more empathy

For someone other than yourself.

Merry Christmas

I hope everyone had the best Christmas ever


Ha

Laugh about it

You’re just another one

Make fun about it

When it’s done it’s done

I don’t care

I don’t give a shit

Anymore

You can die with it alone

You don’t need love

You don’t don’t need me

You.can feel everything

You’ve ever done

I’m not there with you anymore

I don’t give a fuck once I’m gone

Have fun

Have a great life

Leave me alone

I need love too

I tired

Why go I have to be the one to always give YOU love?

I can’t no more

I can’t anymore

I did it for years

I would always try when you didn’t

Reach out when you wouldn’t

And now when I need it

You just leave

So that

Is

On

You.

I’m sorry

You gave done everything you can

To make me feel

Unwanted

Unimportant

And I’m done

Car ride to work

You don’t need my love

You definitely don’t want it

I’ll take the blame

As long as you stay away from me

You don’t know how to treat people and you like to say that I don’t.

If I did even 2% of what you do – you’d kill me.

Hell you’d kill me eventually if I stay.

You can’t do this and expect me to still think you’re a decent person

But knowing you you’ll make up some fucked up reason in your head to justify why you treat me the way you do –

SAVE YOUR BULLSHIT

I’m done. I don’t need your “love”

Love doesn’t equal money

Love isn’t name calling and drinking and blaming

Love is appreciation and caring about someone other than yourself and I’ve done enough if that for the crumbs you give me in return

Why should I be grateful?

Cause you can take your shit out on me?

I’m done with your crazy drunk ass

You can’t even communicate effectively

But you can blame like A pro

And that you are

A professional abuser.

You’ll never see yourself or learn and you just lost the one person who tried and loved you the most.

I’M NOT GOD

I DO NOT ENFORCE KARMA

BUT KARMA FROM THIS MIGHT MAKE YOU A BETTER PERSON FOR SOMEONE ELSE and I hope it does

Just please stay away from me for good. I have no more love for you