I’m spent
I’m tired
I feel like nothing I do
Matters
Or pays off
I try
And love
So much
But it does me no good
And that’s who i am
But it doesn’t matter much
To anyone else.
I wake up
I smile
I go into things
With the right kind of mind
But all I seem to find
Is the same things
That don’t care
About very much if at all about me.
I never felt protected
I never felt safe
And now
I even more alone
I just don’t know what to do
When I try to talk
To you
I just get ignored.
It gets old
And I don’t want to be
The person that it’s okay to just throw away
Anymore
I matter?
Maybe I don’t
I don’t.
Or I wouldn’t be
Here.
Right now
Feeling like who I am
Is not good enough
To love
Or to nurture.
I wish
I meant something more
To you
