Everyone thinks I’m okay

No one knows

That I’m at the end

Of my rope

That I’m down

And can no longer cope

That I’m all out of spirit

All out of love

All out of hope.

Everyone thinks I’m fine

And the one person I’ve shared my feelings with

Just calls me crazy and acts like an enemy

I guess that’s who he is

Does it matter?

I guess not to him

All he had to do was show up

And show me something more than the same thing that never works

That’s not too much to ask

But for him

It’s such a difficult task

And I’m at a low

Already

A low I do not show

But it’s there

And his lack of care and love and being there

Does nothing more but feed

The need

To

Go back home.

My real home

Where he will never see my face again

I’m sorry to the ones I love

Who show me love

But I don’t burden them with all the things that have plagued my mind and heart from the start

To make things end this way

It will just be another day

Like all the rest

Don’t worry

I’ll be just fine

Just not here