No one knows
That I’m at the end
Of my rope
That I’m down
And can no longer cope
That I’m all out of spirit
All out of love
All out of hope.
Everyone thinks I’m fine
And the one person I’ve shared my feelings with
Just calls me crazy and acts like an enemy
I guess that’s who he is
Does it matter?
I guess not to him
All he had to do was show up
And show me something more than the same thing that never works
That’s not too much to ask
But for him
It’s such a difficult task
And I’m at a low
Already
A low I do not show
But it’s there
And his lack of care and love and being there
Does nothing more but feed
The need
To
Go back home.
My real home
Where he will never see my face again
I’m sorry to the ones I love
Who show me love
But I don’t burden them with all the things that have plagued my mind and heart from the start
To make things end this way
It will just be another day
Like all the rest
Don’t worry
I’ll be just fine
Just not here
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