Is not good enough
This is a message to myself
I wish you understood me better
But you choose to only see the me
That is so alone
If I know how to fix it I would
But I can’t change others and
Everywhere I look
Points me in the same direction
I have no one
And no one has me
Remember the Buddhist temple
Under the biggest rock
And whatever is left of the Bush beside my front door
I don’t want to do this no more
But why did you have to be so mean?
I wasn’t mean to you until you got really mean
I just don’t get it
Cause I had so much love in my heart for you
And you would trash be every time
You are responsible for your actions
And those actions lead to making people like they don’t belong
Especially unwanted to you
I guess you forgot what it’s like to be in love and have someone crush you just because they can.
I’d rather crush myself
Are you here with me now?
Do you try to understand and be kind?
Do you even care about me at all?
I wouldn’t know because you don’t even try to keep me around
I thought we had something special
So that’s why I’m so hurt that you could be this way now. It hurts
You’re not hurting at all.
I always thought about you
And wanted to make you happy
But why do I care about you so much
When you don’t give a damn about me.
I see your actions
And that’s not seeing you
You didn’t even say goodbye on my birthday
You make me out to be such a bad person but you’re just plain mean and careless and cruel.
You lie all the time
But blame me
You won’t ever see
Until I’m gone.
Like gone for good.
This has been the hardest time in my life
And I don’t even have you giving me love
Like the love I gave you
I’m an idiot.
You don’t have a heart cause you know pain and you csuse it by doing what hurts me the most.
When you don’t have to.
This is my end.
I’m so heartbroken
It’s beyond repair
This blog started as my creative little poems about the good -the bad -the unknown
But now it’s become my only friend
And I’m even tired of it
And what is turned into
This is my end
I shouldn’t be here