I see what is in front of me
I see who was there when everything went to shit
Don’t tell me I don’t see when you are blind to anything and everything that’s going on with others that you say you care about
how others are affected by it
You only see and feel you.
I don’t have time to see what isn’t there in any way I need
Cause no matter what your words say
What you show is completely different
How you made and make me feel is not good.
So don’t you dare say it’s something I don’t see.
When it mattered
Where were you?
You’re not helping me at all.
And if you think you really are then you’re out of touch with reality
And so out of touch with me.
That’s all that really matters to me right now
And stop telling me what I should feel
What I don’t see
Your words and back and forth talk just drive me crazy and not in a good way
Abd you don’t care
You keep on
Defending yourself when you got nothing
You make excuses
And after so many times
Of the same old shit
From sorry to hate
Mixed with the trauma and loss of everything that I’m trying to deal with
You add extra stress and NO HELP
to the mix
What makes you think you care? Cause you feel something after I’m gone
Cause you are delusional?
Cause you can’t see yourself the way others see you
But you’ll fight and fight and have to be right about something you haven’t cared enough to know anything about : my feelings
You dig yourself into a hole the more you talk without empathy the more words you say without awareness
The more you try to defend something that’s just not worth it.
It makes me think you’re not really a good person
And not someone I want around