I wanted to feel loved
I wanted to matter enough to someone
I wanted to give love and trust that someone would give it back in times that were rough
But it’s hard for people to be kind
When they don’t like something
Or when something or someone makes them feel something they don’t want to feel.
People fail each other all the time
It just hurts me in a different way because I don’t give my true self to just anyone
And when I do
I’m trusting that they won’t reject or mistreat that part of me – that’s like a child
I’m grateful for the things I’ve been given
I just wanted you to understand me and be kind.
I didn’t want to feel like this again
Abandoned stupid and misunderstood
If you listen you will know what is needed
And if you don’t know
Then maybe you didn’t really want to listen
My feelings are valid
My efforts were true
Love is not shutting someone down or out when they are being difficult or too much
Love is feeling the other person. going inside their head and body and feeling through their heart and seeing things through their eyes and helping them feel safe.
Empathy
Too much to ask of one another
I guess so
I’m sorry
The things I tried to tell you
You did not care or want to know.
Everything led me to where i am now
Not a place I would want anyone else to be
Do you feel me?
Do you feel me?
Do you feel me now?
Will you only feel me
When I have gone?
Or maybe you’ll never feel me at all.
…
I’m sorry
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