silencio

I hear doubt
and then I. start to feel the same
it’s not your fault
there’s no one to blame
but I’m too old
too cold
too scared
too familiar
with men
and their in and out game
I’m fine without it
if you doubt it
even a bit
I will quit
I’ve had a life long lesson
on how to get over it
and over things
I’ve learned how to not want
what does not want me
I’ve learned how to
change how I feel
from changing how I see
sometimes it’s just a better way to be
than to be rejected
neglected
deflected
vivisected
disconnected

I will let it be
and if you really need and want and love me
more than I love you
we would be together
right now.

Author: b-side junkie

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