I wish I could forget
Eject you from my brain
And heart
Erase my memory of you
Until you become somebody new
Or better yet you won’t become anything at all
It’s not fair that you can forget me
And I cannot ever forget you
lightning bolt eyes
star kissed smile
i haven’t been fooled
by that face in awhile
words dipped sweet
kissed sugar lips
I drown in a rush
of slippery slips
you comfort me
with a whisper of sweet nothings
you relax me to sleep before the kill
and make me feel it’s such a thrill
your touch
is the clutch
that tangles me
and strangles me
softly
hard
and hardly soft
I open my eyes
to realize
a moment
too late
then forever gone
and so am I.
murdered by love
or assisted suicide
either way
a perfect way to die.
From his bed
I stare at him
His eyes closed and his face beautiful
It’s all so new
But I know that this is love
I won’t say the words to him yet
I won’t even say the words out loud
To myself
Because I’m enjoying the feel
Of this feeling I almost forgot was possible
But I know
This is love
Because of the way
He looks at me
The way he makes me feel
The way
I am and the way I want to be
It’s easy to love him
It’s easy to give him love
And I want to give him more
he appreciates it
He gives love back
He doesn’t make me feel bad or insecure
Like so many others do and have before
He makes me feel alive
I am born again
And all the hurt and pain of the past
Disappears when we touch
I know it’s love
Because I give him all I have
Without compromising myself
And I want to give him everything…
he gives
And expects nothing in return
He is kind and gentle
understanding and sweet
He makes me feel loved
And taken care of
Because he wants to
Oh the funny fuzzy fizzy feel
Excites every fiber of my being
In between kisses
And miles
And in between the sheets
He brings warmth
And laughter
And many smiles
I know it’s love
Even though it’s too new to say out loud
It’s love
Because he is
And I am
And we are
both
Together
Under the moonlight
In the sunshine
In the middle of all the crazy
Confusing World we live in
We are magic
like children are magic
Full of love and shining light
All over this very dark and lonely place
I miss that time
Before all this shit
Went to shit
You gave me a ring
It was simple
Yet pretty
And it meant the world to me
But you pissed me off
And I threw it out the window of my car
ran it over
It had a kink in it after that
And I loved it even more than before
You gave it back to me and I wish I never gave it back to you after that
I miss that time and
I miss that little gold ring
Cause it came from your heart
Which just like you,
I never see anymore
And probably won’t see ever again
Yacht rock
Tick tock
you own a boat
I can’t swin
But I sure can float
I will coat
Your ego
And fix
You a drink
When you’ve had too much to think
I’ll be you link
To home
As long as you’re sweet
And good
And keep us safe
I’ll keep you wild
Protect your inner child
love why don’t you come to you’re senses?
I’m not your enemy
When you gonna see
That all I wanna do
Is love you
And keep you close
Have your baby
As we’ll sail far away
From this soul sucking town
If you would just stick around
I’m not here to bring you down
I’m here to show you the way
To a better day
As long as you’re willing
To be open
And I’ll listen to you
And everything
you’ve been through
Let’s make The life we have left
the best
And invest in one another
Instead of against each other
I know you read this
So it’s up to you
To come through
Don’t let the past remind us
Of what we are not now
Just you and me
And the cats 😉
L.M. I. L. Y.
L.M.L.K.C.
Home is where I want to be
But home isn’t where I live
Home is with you
And I will never be home again
The only one I would ever marry is you.
It’s always been
and
always will be
you.
When I fell in love with you
I had an open mind and an open heart
My smile was for you because you did things that made me happy.
You treated me nice and kind and we had fun
Over time you let insecurities take over
And became angry and mean.
You made me work so hard for your love you love gave me freely.
You took me for three kind of woman I was not.
I ended up paying for the sins of the women before me and I started to hate myself cause I didn’t know what I was doing wrong when I wasn’t doing anything wrong or bad to you.
I kept trying and changing and improving myself to be more understanding and considerate of your feelings only to have you be less understanding and considerate if mine.
What’s even worse is any time we would fight you would just ignore me like I never mattered. Yet the reason we would fight was because you didn’t want to hear my feelings if you didn’t understand them you would automatically just tune me out or call me stupid cause you didn’t want to deal with anything that I felt that ioi didn’t feel. You only wanted me to deal with your feelings when you felt them. Plus most of the time you’d be drinking something. Even if you didn’t drink for a few days – the long term use of alcohol made you become something else and that someone was very mean and abusive and paranoid.
I had beautiful feelings for you until you treated me the way you would treat someone who fucked you over which I never did. You made me become ( in your head) just the same as someone from your past until I finally lost it.
You wanted me to be the Whore you could blame for all your problems. You would rather see a lie that feels confortable and familiar than to see me for who i really was to you. Someone who loved you and cared enough to not want to hurt you.
It was never good enough. Out of all the things I did that were right and loving and good. You would hold onto this one tiny thing I said way back in the beginning that you didn’t like and use that as your reason to treat me the way you did in the end – completely awful.
I would cry myself too sleep so many nights only to wake up to the same thing and not want to leave my bed
I didn’t understand how i could love you so Unconditionally while you had a long list of conditions I had to obey before you even site m me even an ounce of affection. And even if I did everything you said you wanted it didn’t seem to marry you would still get drunk get angry and find some reason to point fingers and leave me again.
That’s what love is to you
That’s not love to me
If I wanted to be with someone else I would have been
I wouldn’t lie and cheat
Why would I have put so much effort until our relationship ( getting barely anything in return) if I didn’t love you.
Why would I constantly go to you and come a running every time you’d call if I just wanted to be with someone else?
That’s dumb that you even use that as a reason to be angry when I would always go home with you
You pushed me away.
You did this.
Not me.
I did everything I could to show you
Love
You did everything you could to push me away
And this last time
You hurt me worse than I ever thought imaginable.
For months after I was the depressed I’ve ever been and you didnt try even just to see if I was okay. I wasn’t.
I started to believe that everyone was like you
I was hopeless trying not to be hopeless
For months you just ignored me and I started to feel like I never existed or mattered to you.
It’s Funny how life is sometimes.
On my lowest night
I met someone
And didn’t think much of it at the time
But after the first night we hung out together I realized that is how it should feel. This is how I should be treated. This is how I want to treat people that are kind and caring and thoughtful to me.
It wasn’t me who did anything wrong with you yeag sure I made some minor mistakes but so did you (and many many major ones) and i didn’t just give up on you and stop loving you. I didn’t just start treating you like someone who didn’t matter the minute I didn’t like something. I communicated and I was honest.
I loved you
But you didn’t love me.
And now that I’m shown respect and love and care without all the unnecessary games abs run arounds and half truths but am still so many lies – i see it even more.
If you wanted me you would have had me. You would have treated me better like people do when they want to keep someone in their life.
You wouldn’t have let me go
But I’m kinda glad you did now
Cause now I know
What love really is. 
It’s been a long long long time…
by The Beatles
It's been a long long long time
How could I ever have lost you
When I loved you
It took a long long long time
Now I´m so happy I found you
How I love you
So many tears I was searching,
So many tears I was wasting, oh
Now I can see you, be you
How can I ever misplace you
How I want you
Oh I love you
You know that I need you
Ooh I love you
Songwriters: George Harrison
Long, Long, Long lyrics © The Bicycle Music Company
i used to be in love
and i believed
love
could change
the world
or at least
i could change the world
because i was in love
it’s all bullshit
and people are no good
even when they are
the hope begins to fade
just like everything else
and the truth seeps in
slowly
making you
comfortably numb
and then crushes you
you become just like everybody else.
i used to feel
until it killed me
now i just know better
before i let any feelings get too settled in
before anything gets too comfortable
i cut it off
there’s no open door policy
there’s no crashing on my couch
there’s no welcome mat for visitors
or company
i don’t even open the door
when there’s a knock.
it will only lead to ruin
and i’ve been there and done that
and never want to do it again
robert smith
i wish i could be just like you.
