don’t fall to pieces
life still goes on
life’s colors haven’t faded
even if life gets you down
try not to let it make you jaded
just remember
you can’t hold on so tight
it’s not your fight tot fight
for what does not belong to you
it’s not that black and white
the layers
the players
constantly change
and rearrange
people come
people go
some people you never really know
someday we all will die
now is not the time to wonder why
say goodbye
don’t hold on
everything you love
some day will be gone
Tag: love
3:45 am Friday morning
Light another cigarette
Haven’t eaten in days
But I’m about to change my ways
Cause it ain’t no thing
This world is about to bring
Something true
Goodbye to everything cruel
I’m not yours
I’m not yours
I am not yours
I belong to me
What you failed to see
Was the real me
And I’m not yours
Sitting on my bed
With better thoughts in my head
Everything you said
Was a lie
Just enough to get by
So Bye bye
It’s not even about you.
Cause everything about you i thought I knew
Was untrue
Just like you were unkind
I’m replacing you in my heart and in mind
With good people
It’s almost 4 am
I got home from work
And then
Something made me see
Something made me be
Okay
Better than OK
I’m happy you decided to go away
Because that’s who you are
And at least now you’re far
From me
So I can be
With someone who deserves
My love
That will never give up
Cause I’m strong
I might be wrong
Sometimes
But I’m right about this
What’s there to miss?
When it was all fake
Someday many years from now
you’ll think of me
And your heart will break
And there will be nothing you can do
Because you akready did what you did
And I’ve rid myself of you
I’m living my life
Tonight people were kind
Made me smile
Helped me find
My way out
Of the mess you left behind
I have more important things to do
Than to be sad and waste my time
Being hurt by someone like you
You don’t know how to love
And I hope you learn
So you can be happy
And In turn
Give love
When things aren’t as easy as you want it to be
Superficial “love”
Just isn’t for me
Goodbye to you
Someone I never really knew
And now don’t care to ever know
Um happy to see you go
Run run run
I am officially done
the side people never show
even when you think you do
you never really know
someone
paintbrushes washed
in my clean and empty room
I feel sick
I feel stuck
I feel buried
inside my own tomb
I don’t know what to do
I’ll just pretend I’m okay
as each and every grueling day
slowly goes by
why?
why ?
I don’t want to die
but I don’t want to live.
I have nothing more
I want or have to give
just put me out of my misery
please
I don’t even want him back
after this
I just don’t want to feel
and I don’t want to miss
the little things
that made me so happy
like never before
but I don’t love anyone
who so easily walks out the door
without warning
without saying anything
that matters
after everything you said to me
that I thought mattered
like I thought you mattered
just put me out of my misery
I don’t care about love
I don’t care about having you
I don’t care that we are through
I don’t want to die
but I don’t want to live
I have nothing more
left to give
just put my out of my misery
do you hear me?
please.
put me out of my misery.
I don’t know how I feel
a box full of lies
memories of something wonderful
that didn’t really mean a thing
ice cold
people get old
I’m not okay
but what can you do
I wouldn’t want someone like you
if I knew everything could turn
with the flip of a switch
which
I should have done
to you
you don’t need care
you don’t need love
you need to learn
how to treat people
and you need to learn
how to work things through
not just to run away.
some day it will be you
and i hope it makes you a better person
I don’t care
you can stay
the way
you are
far from my love
that I wasted
on someone who just doesn’t really care
I need to be more aware
of people who say I love you
too much
to make up for
the little love they have
I’m glad it’s over
at least I know who you are now
instead of finding out years from now
you’re not a bad person
you just don’t know how to love
and follow through
and work through
the times when things get rough
you’re not tough
but neither am I
so all I can do is sit here
alone and allow myself to cry
over what I thought was real
and hopefully soon
I won’t feel
anything at all for you anymore
2022
You want to leave me
and i can’t argue
i can’t give you anything
that will make you feel
like you should stay
if you’ve already made you way
Out the door
like I’ve seen
many times before
you ever existed in my life
all i can do is cry
as the greatest part of me
continues to die
the end is near
i say words
that have no sound
that you will never hear
the fear
of losing
again
wins.
Love
All I want to do
Is be close to you
I don’t want to waste any more time
Without you
When I know that you’re the one.

shoebox of years
photographs of people
some I can’t remember
some I would rather forget
some… I will forever miss
if I could do it all over again
I would
and I wouldn’t change a thing
…
not because it was perfect (it wasn’t)
not because I didn’t fuck up (I most definitely did)
but because all those things…
led me to you
and it’s you – I have been waiting my whole life for.
😉
_


waiting out the days
Don’t want to scream and shout
but I can’t seem to figure it out
I feel like half a person
a big hole in soul
a big hole in my heart
when I reach out to you
you just tear me more apart
and I wish I was better
maybe better off dead
I let myself go through it
be in it
just to get you out of my head.
it’s so easy for you to be mean
hide behind your smoke screen
if you ever loved me
if you ever cared
I can’t tell
I’m not well
you love seeing me down
you love putting me through hell
and I wish I was happy
maybe I’d be better off dead
I have to get through this
be in this
just to shed you from my head
I know things will get easier
time heals
or so they say
but right now
I’m all kinds of broken
-just waiting out the days
until I’m okay again


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We
I am here
And you are there
But we are connected
Many many lifetimes
Of knowing
And waiting
But do you want me
Or do you just want me to be safe?
You got your life
And I have to wait
But I don’t think you want to wait
Around for me
I know what I want
But I have things I have to do
And people I can’t let down
And you have others
You want and must have around
I want a family
I want to truly be loved
seen
Felt
And understood
If you could feel my heart
You would know
But you only show
What you show
And I really don’t know
Where I fit into that
Maybe I’m dumb
Or blind
Or half blind
But I do know my heart feels something
Strong
For you
What do you want from me?
What do you have with others
What do we do?
It can’t only come from Me
Clearly
Speak
What is inside you
detox
kiss kiss kiss
3 day of this
and I miss miss miss
you
but you have been somewhere else
far from me
far from you
far from here
for quite some time
every time I call you near
I’ve been talking to fear
you’ll save yourself at any cost
save yourself first at any cost
even if it means being lost
I’m lost
I call you near
in a trance
in a sleep dance
I call you near
but you never hear
even if you do
you’re not here
