By the way

I’m not okay.

Cut again

Need to stop

Can’t

It’s the only way

I feel

Control

I’m a bitch

Or so you say

Doesn’t matter much

Anyways

You have no idea

How bad I already feel?

Do you love me for yourself

Or do you love me

To actually give me love?

I think it’s the first

One

If I’m not the way you want me to be

Then you show your hate for me

Show your hate for me

Show your hate for me

I’ll bleed myself dry

Just to make you understand

Where I stand

Don’t think we are the same

Cos we’re not.

Buster

I love you

I wish I could take away your pain

And make you young again

Fuck…

This sucks

What a dick you are

Remember the joker?

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA

You get what you deserve

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shadows kiss

this

soft parade down

town

i see you in the month

of gloom

doom

and prance my little dance

around your grave

all the things we cannot save…

the long goodbye

meets the short hello

the time we waste

is wasted below

the belt

and shine

waiting for

the finish line

the end

is not the way

to live

to love

or to spend your day

shake the trees

so the fallen leaves

die to the ground

open your ears

and listen

to the sound

as we miss

many a shadows kiss

has it come to this?

let’s go back to the start

and that begins within

the mind and inside the heart.

mind and heart

think and feel

dream and make

believe

imagine it and it will be

come

one with one

we are.

born again

morning chill

early Tuesday morning. 5:am
Just finished packing my car
The morning air is an uncomfortable kind of sharp
The wind only makes it worse.
I’m just about ready
to leave this shit hole
before the sun comes out
so I don’t have to see how ugly it is.
the morning sun is harsh
and I don’t want to be stuck in traffic.

I don’t say goodbye
I haven’t told anyone where I’m going
cause I don’t even know
I give my cats some love
and close the door behind me
as I get in the car
I shiver and shake
inside
warming up my car
watching my own breath
I am beside myself
this was my only option
… well not my only option

but
I’ll save that for another day

heading out of this town
I begin to feel okay
I think I might get a new number
go by some other name
just so I don’t feel the same
as I did here
when I get to wherever I go
I don’t know.

and
not knowing
is okay by me.

Tonight

I’m here

You should be here too

So come here

Cause it’s the last time

I’m reaching out for you

Tomorrow will be too late

And next month

You won’t see

Me anymore

What for?

If you don’t show

Me any reason

Then it’s time for me to go

I’ve been getting used

To

Forgetting about you

I didn’t want to

But I had to

And tonight

Is the last

Chance

We got.

Come to me

I’ll keep you warm

If not

Then this is goodbye.

tranquility has your skin crawling
up and down the walls
pacing through the halls
but nothing feels as good as it used to
and
nothing will ever be the same
when will this be over?
soon you will feel your blame.

inside your bubble of crazy
your light at the end of the tunnel
is running away

Slander

You should be ashamed of yourself for what you gave done.

This person you let back in is a con artist.

Stole my camera by telling me his car got broken into and then replaced it with a shit camera that doesn’t even work and doesn’t have all the stuff that my camera had. When I called him on it. He basically told me he would check my camera bag. How can you check the bag for something if it got stolen.

So defamation of character is totally wrong and exactly what you’re doing to me.

You don’t think people tell me what you’ve said about me?

You don’t think it’s wrong to allow someone who does shady shit to everyone but the worst shit to me to come back and then make me suffer for his illegal shit.

You basically pushed me out of there and to answer your question – no obviously are not friends cause of YOU. Not because of me

Do you ever see how you treat people that have been good to you. Never stole money. Even when you left the bank WAY over – i would tell you every time. I’m sure majority of people there would not do that because you screw them over so much and have no loyalty that why would they want to be loyal to you?

I’m just saying what everyone who’s dealt with you and worked for you has said at least one time before

This is a vent cause you really don’t see that the problem is and it starts with whoever is in charge. I’ve never had anyone knowingly make me feel so unsafe and disposable just because I had the balls to tell you what was going on.

And all the messages I have saved prove it.

I guess you like people who lie and steal from you more than people who might make a few mistakes but is good at what I do and doesn’t steal.

I’m not a good talker like the person you brought back and pushed me out for. He’s a sales man but he’s not someone I would ever trust again. I made that mistake with him and with the both of you. You never had my back. So why should I ever had yours?

And it’s a pattern with you guys. The people who have gone above abd beyond for you and the business – you take advantage of and aren’t very nice to for reasons that other people can get away with.

Plus you accuse people of lying before you even know the truth. I have many examples of situations to back this up.

You’re losing money cause of you

Not because of anyone else.

Don’t call someone a liar when they can prove that they’re not. Don’t slander my name just because I’m standing up for myself and my rights – since you’re not.

Don’t treat people who have done more than they are required and helped out as much as they could – like they don’t matter in a serious situation like this.

And don’t be a hypocrite. You want others to treat you right and help out and be on time and be honest. It starts with YOU first. Lead by example. Everything about you guys and that place is toxic. Except for the few people who still work there and are clueless the fact that what you’re doing it’s wrong

Plain a simple the things you’ve done are WRONG and illegal and a slap in the face to the people that were actually good to you.

You’ve lost more business because of the people you get rid of for stupid reasons. The fact that you talk crap about those people behind there backs (most of which is not even true) and how you treat people that used to be loyal and go in all the time.

All the problems you have are because of you.

You are not helping yourself right now

See your situation from the perspective of someone else that’s not you looking in at the situation

It’s not too hard to see

I’ve managed the same kind of business before and I know more about how to get returning business and consistently busy nights and more money and it’s not by doing it the way you have.

If something or someone is bringing your business down (and enough people have said this and stopped going there because of this) then that’s your own fault for allowing it to continue to operate in an inefficient way.

I wish you the best but even more so I wish you would open your eyes and see your actions that lead the situation you’re in now.

You had loyal people but you didn’t treat them right.

How would you feel if the shoe was on the other foot. You wouldn’t feel good and I know you would want it to stop. Or you would try your hardest to make it stop so no one gets treated like that again

But it’s not you

And you think you’re doing the right thing

But you’re not.

Greed and believing shit that you know nothing about and a lack of care for people makes a bad leader.

Thank you

To everyone who has been there for me

You don’t know how much you all mean to me 😉

If you like pina coladas

Yacht rock

Tick tock

you own a boat

I can’t swin

But I sure can float

I will coat

Your ego

And fix

You a drink

When you’ve had too much to think

I’ll be you link

To home

As long as you’re sweet

And good

And keep us safe

I’ll keep you wild

Protect your inner child

love why don’t you come to your senses?

I’m not your enemy

When you gonna see

That all I wanna do

Is love you

And keep you close

Have your baby

As we’ll sail far away

From this soul sucking town

If you would just stick around

I’m not here to bring you down

I’m here to show you the way

To a better day

As long as you’re willing

To be open

And I’ll listen to you

And everything

you’ve been through

Let’s make The life we have left

the best

And invest in one another

Instead of against each other

I know you read this

So it’s up to you

To come through

Don’t let the past remind us

Of what we are not now

Just you and me

And the cats 😉

L.M. I. L. Y.

L.M.L.K.C.

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