so what if you’re weird… so what if I had a moment of allowing you to be weird? I’m weird all the time. I had a moment of knowing that you needed something and maybe I couldn’t give it to you but at least I could be there for you in some weird fucked up way because I needed to not feel weird in some weird fucked up way. but don’t fucking be weird about it now. something about you makes me want to help you I don’t know take care of you in a non motherly non- girlfriend kinda of way fuck it I couldn’t care less about what I feel except for I don’t want you to treat me weird. I actually enjoyed. two weird-ass people in a weird situation that will most likely never happen again and that’s the beauty of it that it did happen and I didn’t judge you. I just didn’t want you to feel alone in this stupid beautiful world because it’s so easy to feel alone in a city like this that feeds off of drama and bullshit and faking it until you make it bullshit
I don’t know what I’m doing sometimes…. and that’s okay We’re all a little weird and a little lonely sometimes.
Anyone who tries to pretend like they’re not those things is lying. I like all the imperfect people allowing themselves to be just what they are… and not pretending to something or someone else. I like a little weird I enjoy a little strange The moments I get to be with people, where they allow me in – to see how strange they are- even if only for a night- is truly special- It’s those moments that make life worth living. If everyone had a place to be themselves and a place to feel safe… this world might be a better place.
shut it down shut it off shut it out shut up howl to the moon and cry yourself to sleep you’re in too deep on the shallow side you can run and I’ll hide didn’t anyone teach you not to run with scissors in your hand you try to walk on water when you can barely crawl on land you can kiss off piss off kick rocks get lost but lost is what you are you can keep running but you won’t get very far what you fear will always be near but it won’t be me that you see it won’t be me there is no we.
I don’t owe you anything there’s nothing I am obligated to do for you I do not care what you want or how you feel because nothing about you is even real
not my problem none of my concern i light a match detach set it on fire and let it burn as I turn and walk away not ever looking back
I’m glad you took off the way you did I’m glad you showed me who you really are It hurt like hell at first but you leaving made room for someone who has brought me back to life again who cares and who excites in ways you never would and or never could.
I wish you could know how my heart feels I can’t tell you how to be you only see what you want to see and you don’t see me I can’t tell you how I feel you never cared to listen you don’t want to hear you don’t feel me I came from you but you were already a million miles away I have no connection to you I have no connection to the man who helped you make me too you never wanted me I always wanted and needed you but I know now you are no mother to me so now I’ve got to set you free …
photographs of people some I can’t remember some I would rather forget some… I will forever miss if I could do it all over again I would and I wouldn’t change a thing … not because it was perfect (it wasn’t) not because I didn’t fuck up (I most definitely did) but because all those things… led me to you and it’s you – I have been waiting my whole life for.
Don’t want to scream and shout but I can’t seem to figure it out I feel like half a person a big hole in soul a big hole in my heart when I reach out to you you just tear me more apart
and I wish I was better maybe better off dead I let myself go through it be in it just to get you out of my head.
it’s so easy for you to be mean hide behind your smoke screen if you ever loved me if you ever cared I can’t tell I’m not well you love seeing me down you love putting me through hell
and I wish I was happy maybe I’d be better off dead I have to get through this be in this just to shed you from my head
I know things will get easier time heals or so they say but right now I’m all kinds of broken -just waiting out the days
until I’m okay again
Above is a great journal to help you get through a breakup. Sometimes keeping a record of how you feel and what you’re going through day by day can help you better understand yourself and be more self-aware. It also can help you be aware of unhealthy patterns and habits.