I wish you could know how my heart feels I can’t tell you how to be you only see what you want to see and you don’t see me I can’t tell you how I feel you never cared to listen you don’t want to hear you don’t feel me I came from you but you were already a million miles away I have no connection to you I have no connection to the man who helped you make me too you never wanted me I always wanted and needed you but I know now you are no mother to me so now I’ve got to set you free …
photographs of people some I can’t remember some I would rather forget some… I will forever miss if I could do it all over again I would and I wouldn’t change a thing … not because it was perfect (it wasn’t) not because I didn’t fuck up (I most definitely did) but because all those things… led me to you and it’s you – I have been waiting my whole life for.
Don’t want to scream and shout but I can’t seem to figure it out I feel like half a person a big hole in soul a big hole in my heart when I reach out to you you just tear me more apart
and I wish I was better maybe better off dead I let myself go through it be in it just to get you out of my head.
it’s so easy for you to be mean hide behind your smoke screen if you ever loved me if you ever cared I can’t tell I’m not well you love seeing me down you love putting me through hell
and I wish I was happy maybe I’d be better off dead I have to get through this be in this just to shed you from my head
I know things will get easier time heals or so they say but right now I’m all kinds of broken -just waiting out the days
until I’m okay again
Above is a great journal to help you get through a breakup. Sometimes keeping a record of how you feel and what you’re going through day by day can help you better understand yourself and be more self-aware. It also can help you be aware of unhealthy patterns and habits.
heart space room space head space my space shared with a head case nowhere to go no place to move I can’t breathe I can’t face it anymore I try… to make it better I try to make it okay- to make it just o.k.- only to have it not be okay only to have it stay… Just the same or get even worse. like a curse I need to reverse but I can’t seem to – get myself back on track when I have no space to move No space to breathe no space to live please just give me a break for god’s sake at least be helpful not harmful be aware and care instead of just always there – always in my way. please… make it be better than just okay. because every day living this way- is not living it’s death-
at least tomorrow *sigh* is a new day to try again.
I am alone with my head and my heavy heart silent and cold why did you leave me this way? why did you promise me you would always stay. now I am left alone with only these feelings I get no response no reply from you it’s like I’m not even here like I’m invisible not worth your time and it hurts it hurts so bad to be ignored and treated like nothing. nobody when I was once somebody to you. what can I do? not a thing but to go away. and stay away. you pushed me so far away from you so far gone is where I’ll stay. this is the only way I won’t have to feel this pain.