Don’t want to scream and shout but I can’t seem to figure it out I feel like half a person a big hole in soul a big hole in my heart when I reach out to you you just tear me more apart
and I wish I was better maybe better off dead I let myself go through it be in it just to get you out of my head.
it’s so easy for you to be mean hide behind your smoke screen if you ever loved me if you ever cared I can’t tell I’m not well you love seeing me down you love putting me through hell
and I wish I was happy maybe I’d be better off dead I have to get through this be in this just to shed you from my head
I know things will get easier time heals or so they say but right now I’m all kinds of broken -just waiting out the days
until I’m okay again
Above is a great journal to help you get through a breakup. Sometimes keeping a record of how you feel and what you’re going through day by day can help you better understand yourself and be more self-aware. It also can help you be aware of unhealthy patterns and habits.
early Tuesday morning. 5:am Just finished packing my car The morning air is an uncomfortable kind of sharp The wind only makes it worse. I’m just about ready to leave this shit hole before the sun comes out so I don’t have to see how ugly it is. the morning sun is harsh and I don’t want to be stuck in traffic.
I don’t say goodbye I haven’t told anyone where I’m going cause I don’t even know I give my cats some love and close the door behind me as I get in the car I shiver and shake inside warming up my car watching my own breath I am beside myself this was my only option … well not my only option
but I’ll save that for another day
heading out of this town I begin to feel okay I think I might get a new number go by some other name just so I don’t feel the same as I did here when I get to wherever I go I don’t know.