Don’t want to scream and shout but I can’t seem to figure it out I feel like half a person a big hole in soul a big hole in my heart when I reach out to you you just tear me more apart
and I wish I was better maybe better off dead I let myself go through it be in it just to get you out of my head.
it’s so easy for you to be mean hide behind your smoke screen if you ever loved me if you ever cared I can’t tell I’m not well you love seeing me down you love putting me through hell
and I wish I was happy maybe I’d be better off dead I have to get through this be in this just to shed you from my head
I know things will get easier time heals or so they say but right now I’m all kinds of broken -just waiting out the days
until I’m okay again
Above is a great journal to help you get through a breakup. Sometimes keeping a record of how you feel and what you’re going through day by day can help you better understand yourself and be more self-aware. It also can help you be aware of unhealthy patterns and habits.
heart space room space head space my space shared with a head case nowhere to go no place to move I can’t breathe I can’t face it anymore I try… to make it better I try to make it okay- to make it just o.k.- only to have it not be okay only to have it stay… Just the same or get even worse. like a curse I need to reverse but I can’t seem to – get myself back on track when I have no space to move No space to breathe no space to live please just give me a break for god’s sake at least be helpful not harmful be aware and care instead of just always there – always in my way. please… make it be better than just okay. because every day living this way- is not living it’s death-
at least tomorrow *sigh* is a new day to try again.
I am alone with my head and my heavy heart silent and cold why did you leave me this way? why did you promise me you would always stay. now I am left alone with only these feelings I get no response no reply from you it’s like I’m not even here like I’m invisible not worth your time and it hurts it hurts so bad to be ignored and treated like nothing. nobody when I was once somebody to you. what can I do? not a thing but to go away. and stay away. you pushed me so far away from you so far gone is where I’ll stay. this is the only way I won’t have to feel this pain.
time for the tables to turn it’s time for me to ignore all that is you cause all you seem to do is find a reason to make me wrong so you can do what you do and i’m not going to swallow that shit you call love when it’s all just abuse i really loved you and this is what you do to me who just wanted to be good to you but even that isn’t good enough for you you look for any reason to turn what was true into a lie so you can do whatever you want to do you’d rather be right being wrong the same ol’ story your same old fucking song it never mattered how much or little i give to you the idea you have made up in your wet drunken sunken head has killed my love has left me mostly dead instead of trust you push and you push until you bust any good that we had some people love their misery some people like being sad and mad and drunk and sunk and that someone is you out to sea this is you but this ain’t me your drowning drowning in your own sorrow fucked up and checked out in your make believe ugly world that ain’t mine this isn’t the time to go down to the hell you call home
murderer sickness I am sick but you are cancer you think you have the answer to everything which you do not know even though you know me better than most here’s a toast to you and your ability to kill at will and still think you’re right even when you’ve lost sight blind as a bat scaredy cat with your proverbiale claws out but worse cause you curse everyone you love in your “passive aggressive fucked up fuck you ” kind of way that ain’t kind at all do you get off on watching others that you think are guilty- fall? and let me pose another question for you that i know you’ll never answer cause you’re too busy building up your stupid wall is there a slight chance just maybe quite possibly… you could be wrong at all? ha NEVER! NOT YOU! stand by your convictions fight to be right just to be right can’t even acknowledge left or that you could be wrong same old story same old UGLY SAD PATHETIC song spread your ill and kill the ones who ever loved you OFF SO YOU CAN SAY IN YOUR FUCKED UP HEAD “at least i’m right”