Don’t want to scream and shout but I can’t seem to figure it out I feel like half a person a big hole in soul a big hole in my heart when I reach out to you you just tear me more apart
and I wish I was better maybe better off dead I let myself go through it be in it just to get you out of my head.
it’s so easy for you to be mean hide behind your smoke screen if you ever loved me if you ever cared I can’t tell I’m not well you love seeing me down you love putting me through hell
and I wish I was happy maybe I’d be better off dead I have to get through this be in this just to shed you from my head
I know things will get easier time heals or so they say but right now I’m all kinds of broken -just waiting out the days
until I’m okay again
Above is a great journal to help you get through a breakup. Sometimes keeping a record of how you feel and what you’re going through day by day can help you better understand yourself and be more self-aware. It also can help you be aware of unhealthy patterns and habits.
heart space room space head space my space shared with a head case nowhere to go no place to move I can’t breathe I can’t face it anymore I try… to make it better I try to make it okay- to make it just o.k.- only to have it not be okay only to have it stay… Just the same or get even worse. like a curse I need to reverse but I can’t seem to – get myself back on track when I have no space to move No space to breathe no space to live please just give me a break for god’s sake at least be helpful not harmful be aware and care instead of just always there – always in my way. please… make it be better than just okay. because every day living this way- is not living it’s death-
at least tomorrow *sigh* is a new day to try again.
time for the tables to turn it’s time for me to ignore all that is you cause all you seem to do is find a reason to make me wrong so you can do what you do and i’m not going to swallow that shit you call love when it’s all just abuse i really loved you and this is what you do to me who just wanted to be good to you but even that isn’t good enough for you you look for any reason to turn what was true into a lie so you can do whatever you want to do you’d rather be right being wrong the same ol’ story your same old fucking song it never mattered how much or little i give to you the idea you have made up in your wet drunken sunken head has killed my love has left me mostly dead instead of trust you push and you push until you bust any good that we had some people love their misery some people like being sad and mad and drunk and sunk and that someone is you out to sea this is you but this ain’t me your drowning drowning in your own sorrow fucked up and checked out in your make believe ugly world that ain’t mine this isn’t the time to go down to the hell you call home
kiss kiss kiss 3 day of this and I miss miss miss you but you have been somewhere else far from me far from you far from here for quite some time every time I call you near I’ve been talking to fear you’ll save yourself at any cost save yourself first at any cost even if it means being lost I’m lost I call you near in a trance in a sleep dance I call you near but you never hear even if you do you’re not here
lovers you look empty the love might just change like lies
the changes catch unborn truth the voices speak just like you the trace of silence was real with this feeling from the last moment without knowing all you need the lonely -after hour anxiety some little bugs eat you ask one question and hide before it can get to you
child distract him absolutely invisible there were cries waiting for the night the scent collects but here this idea comes and you need sleep and affection so here it gets lost the only fatality made forgetting more melancholy not sudden and nothing happened this sinking evil illusion life disappears the voice here never existed this false face tears softly and challenges the real
all eyes had felt your denial this useless existence away with the night
you who come from the dark- unusual into this light- strange your love was enough above the sky you can see that this is the end whispering time hear the word hear our language a sudden taste of mystic too many must look not dwell under the fall without the curtain glow like you
purple would have understood the holding hand the mouth both interested and obsessed for you the black was still light this face and soul the same everything around you faded and remained
slippery love shake you out out out this was absolutely different your heart vibrations smile flames from the body will not be tamed they are beautiful lovely but cursed as you find them new meaning I’ll remind you of my kisses and continue life mute