Can’t get too close

You always leave me

And

It is getting on my nerves

I’ve made up my mind

To get rid of my commitment issues

To find someone worth my time

And before that get over you

You got your reasons and I have mine.

I gave up

On you

Because I shouldn’t have to do all the work

I shouldn’t have to try when you don’t Try at all

I shouldn’t be ignored whenever you are up to something that I wouldn’t be happy with Or something that you know doesn’t help us in any way

I shouldn’t have to deal with you letting another woman live with you when you could have asked me. And I shouldn’t be made to feel uncomfortable because you allowed her to live there but not me

I shouldn’t have to be put in situations that obviously would make me feel bad, insecure – and make me go crazy And then be called crazy when i react to the Bullshit that you started

I gave up on you cause you make me feel unsafe with your actions and with my feelings and with how you treat my feelings.

I gave up you cause you do everything to make me have to give up

I gave up on you because if I’m going to give my heart to someone -it’s going to be someone who doesn’t make me feel like an option

Someone who doesn’t take care of another woman while refusing to take care of me

If I’m going to be with someone it’s going to be Someone who wants to show me love and trust and sees the good in me and who makes me feel good

Someone who I can trust who doesn’t do things to try and make me feel insecure

Someone who has patience

Someone who takes the bad with the good

Someone who I can depend on

Someone with humility

Someone who doesn’t waste my time

Or play games

Someone who wants me around and shows it

I gave up on you

Because you give me no reason to stay

You wanted it that way

And the way you treat me isn’t very good at all.

I loved you for years

And i don’t even know why I kept trying for so long.

I got nothing from you

Except for the best example of the worst type of relationship

The kind anyone with a heart should stay away from

I got nothing from you except this shirt lol. Ha. That’s kinda true.

The sound of silence

I understand you.

Your silence speaks volumes

The ghost of you haunts me

and it will not go away

I don’t agree with everything you did to me

Or how you thought about me

But I was good to you

And loved you

More than I’ve ever loved anyone

And you treat me like a stranger

So you got what you wanted

You left me

Forever

Incomplete

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Home is where I want to be

Home is where I want to be

But home isn’t where I live

Home is with you

And I will never be home again

Found a ring that don’t mean a thing

The sport highway clogs my balance

A metal tears?

A pedal steers

The weight of the vinyl smells

Melting grooves that will soon make a tune.

A tune that May be sweet to the ears

Or bleak to the fears

The optional bench cries

Under and into the man who sits

On its throne

Both the bench and the man

wanting so badly to be alone

In mourn

Wanting and waiting

For something great to be born

Another addict shelves the staggering sentence

As he falls into the long sleep of death

The sunrise boot laughs

As he kicks my nightowl ass

The textbook race expires

As the new dying you tires

nature flashes

As the true lie clashes

The overpriced mouth

Splashes

And lashes

Out

Spilling

And Killing

And willing to

Do

Whatever It is is you need to do

Because you only care about you

Evil fuck

Why do you feel the need to kill anything good that you have..

It’s your nature

I don’t want you.

You’ll never change what is you.

The calm

What’s strange to me

Is how calm I feel

Now

That

I’ve

Made

A

Decision

To

End

This.

It’s pointless to argue

If you want to love someone

Show them love

If you want to kill someone

Show them by not listening

By not giving a damn

By ignoring their feelings.

They’ll start to feel the same way too

When the calm sets in

That’s when you know

It’s the end

At the end

I don’t know how you can say things to someone and then take them back the way you do

But I do know that

This is not

What you do

To someone

If you want them to feel loved

And safe

Abs taken care of

This is what you do

When you want them to see

That

They aren’t worth it to show them real love

That

They are just someone who you can hurt

And then make them feel like it’s their fault when they need a little more

This is why

I know my days

Are coming to an end

I don’t need you to understand me or save me

When you’re the one

Who didn’t care to be love

When it actually mattered.

I wonder if you’ll care

When you realize

How little love you showed me now

After

I am gone.

Nothing about you is real

You lie

To me

To yourself

So goodbye

You are erased from my life

And from my memory.

I was great before you

So I’m great right now.

It only triggers something if you care

And why should I care about someone who always wants to make me feel bad?

Exactly

You have become just another face in the crowd.

One I don’t even notice cause it’s not worth my time.

I should be that to you as well.

Ok now for something completely different.

Today was a good day.

Stupid questions

You say a lot of stupid things

And I don’t stop loving you

But I ask a question

You find stupid

You get mad and treat me with hate

You say anything you want to me

All the time and I’m suppose to take it like a joke and roll with it

But if I do it

You just get hateful

After days of us being good.

I guess you’ll always be this way

If a question you don’t like makes you hate me and makes you forget everything good we have then

I know it’s not me.

If I can love the worst you and still be by your side

But you can’t even love me when I ask one question you find stupid then you need to learn how to love better

Cause love isn’t just loving someone when it’s easy. Love is loving someone when it’s not the easiest.

You hate me every other day

But you don’t see yourself and how you are

You say I’m a hypocrite

But you are too

Why do you have to go to the place of hate over something you could just have patience with. You make everything go to shit for the dumbest things

You have more hate in you

Then you do love