I can’t stand to see you across from me
Yet not with me.
I want to just break
In pieces
At the sight
Of you
With someone else
Cause I just love being with you.
Cut #5423
Whatever is right or wrong
There is no right or wrong of that
Way back when
You can’t rehash over shit that is so far gone in days
And so far drunk is haze
That memory does nothing
To separate the days
And fact becomes fiction.
fiction becomes fable
And You and i
are not very able
To bring any good out of that
Which is not
That important
when it comes down to the grind
When we fight about past shit
I start to fucking lose my mind
And it brings me back to a time
I can’t comprehend
And all I want is for this to end
Please end
The only way to get over something is to get yourself through
The thing that most of us forever avoid
And after cut #5423
And maybe a half
I can only just sit back
Look at at what I’ve done to myself (again) and laugh
Not funny ha ha
Not funny hee hee
But not ever quite sane
Stuck in a loop
Of wax and wane
Over and over and over again
How many scars do I have to gain?
To see how much of myself I’ve lost.
At such a cost
All because of me
All because of we and me.
The bathroom Is no longer my safe place
Anymore
I guess it never really was before
Just cause I could lock the door
Doesn’t mean u could get out
Not something safe.
And neither are any of you
I’m am grateful
For my life
And for all that I have
Fuck
I just like you
A lot.
I don’t know what that means
You’re my friend
But you’re so much more
Ugh
I think I’ll keep that one to myself
For now.
Even though you probably already know
It doesn’t matter
You’re someone I want around
And I’m happy when you are around
Cheesy post
I don’t give a fuck
That’s how I feel
I’m happy for you
I am Beside myself
By myself
Split into two
Spat Onto both sides of the fold
The moment I got told
The news flash
And crash
I got old
A Gash to my head
As you Trash my bleeding heart
now I am right here
Left all Wrong
I am
Face to face
Forward
But Back to the start
Again
What’s done is done
What’s gone is gone
What’s already dead
It’s time for me to let die
Yesterday has passed
and moved on
Without me
The past is just a goodbye
This one goes out to the one who hurts the most
Some people are hurting far worse that u can recognize.
I was
But I deal with certain things better than most
Worse than some
And I can’t get
Mad
They are who they are
Because life made them be the way the had to be
And I wish them now love and kindness
Than they ever have known
I do
Goodnight to you
I still love you
I wish I could go back
5 years
My heart hurts
Now I feel everything
I tried to cover up
And push down before.
But
I never Got over you
The wedding
It’s been about 2 years
You’re with someone else
And I don’t mind
cause when you’re out of sight
You’re out of mind
I’ve managed to not run into you
Or see you
And her
But now I have to see you this Sunday
At this stupid wedding
Of someone I don’t even know
I feel sick to my stomach
a.d.w.a.y – (something i wrote exactly 4 years ago tonight)
a.d. w. a. y. ?
you would write a thing or two and
toss it a million ways around
the net-
-work
it’s way aross the many screens
i didn’t think twice
when it would
sometimes hit me
sometimes miss me.
but now i find myself missing you
you were lonely then
like me now
searching for something
that only exists with some people
and even some people have exhausted it
but you were sensitive like me
i could feel that between the static
i could feel that between the lies
the lies of life
we see
and run into
and
all i can think about right now
is the empty
and the space
the negative
the silent
on the memory of something
notifiations never-
tag my name now
no notes
no news
not
nothing
new
comes now
from you
you’re nowhere to be seen
please
come
back
my friend
you don’t know how much you mean
…
to me :)
poisoned brain
don’t want to try
to do anything different
than what hasn’t worked
a whole life time
but it’s never you
or it always you
but that’s just what you’ve expect for yourself
even though you are more than that
sometimes
but sometimes isn’t enough i guess
when you don’t see it
and when you don’t care
how can anyone else?
Too many assholes
Painted lips
Nails
And face
I wanna get out of this place
I wanna shoot from the moon
Ravage the stars
Find some space
To make love
Real love
I wanna feel the dirt
And feel the earth
And let nothing hurt
Anyone
Anything.
And
Me
I
Am
And
I Am
nothing
Like
The thing you first see
I wanna be
Where I am truly free
Wanna be there with me?
skin loves fever 
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