skin loves fever

I was in love.
he loved me
but some people hate to see people happy
I didn’t realize how low people would go
just to drag me down in the hole they’re in

it’s been almost a year
I found out he saw something in my bag
that wasn’t mine
he left
my “friend” told me
‘oh he’s to0 boring for you’
but I didn’t understand
how one week we could be planning our future
to the next week
he takes off
leaves states
over nothing
not anything that could not be worked out
but now I know
my “friend”
was never my friend
she hated that I was happy
she talked shit about me behind my back
moved stuffed I owned around
planted things in my house
because she wanted everyone to believe
that I was something worse than she.
and it worked
and I lost
I never had much
but she made me lose a lot of what really mattered
and now I lost something even more
myself
the light
the belief in people being good

the love in my heart
the trust I had

all because of some miserable bitch
trying to pretend to be my friend to my face
but do witchery manipulative mind fuck shit
behind my back
because she is nobody
SHE IS NOTHING
SHE IS UGLY INSIDE AND OUT
AND EVERYONE WHO GETS CLOSE TO HER
KNOWS IT
HENCE WHY SHE HAS

NO FRIENDS

but you caused me
to lose things
I loved
so much
who loved me
and you lie \
you cheat
you steal
and you’re so good at playing the part
that people think you’re real
well people who don’t know you
because everyone who gets to know you
sees through your BULLSHIT
WHICH IS EVERYTHING YOU ARE
AND THEY D0N’T LIKE YOU AT ALL

AT ALL

YOU ARE NOTHING

YOU DON’T BRING ANY GOOD TO THIS WORLD

AND THAT’S NOT ME BEING MEAN
that’s the truth

all I’ve ever wanted was to love and be loved
and YOU FUCKED WITH MY LIFE BECAUSE YOU’RE SO PATHETIC DUMB AND MISERABLE.

AND I TRUSTED YOU.

IT’S FUNNY HOW YOU MADE PEOPLE BELIEVE I WAS SOMEBODY
DOING THINS
THAT YOU DO
I COULD NOT
WOULD NOT EVER
WILL NEVER BE
AS SHITTY OF A PERSON
AS YOU.

your ego needs to do you a favor and step aside
so you can see how shitty of a person you are
and maybe then you’ll do this world a favor
whatever comes to your mind first
but you do not make this world a better place

YOU’RE THE UGLIEST CRUELEST PERSON

THAT I THOUGHT WAS MY FRIEND

YO MADE ME LOSE THINGS THAT I REALLY TRUELY APPRECIATED AND LOVED

ALL FOR YOUR MISERY TO HAVE COMPANY:?

FUCK YOU BITCH

I CAN’T WAIT FOR IT TO ALL COME BACK TO YOU
BECAUSE WHEN YOU FUCK WITH PEOPLE THE WAY YOU DO
(AND YOU’VE DONE SO MANY TIMES -YOU THINK PEOPLE DON’T TALK HA)
IT WILL COME BACK TO YOU

AND I WILL SIT THERE AND WATCH AND LAUGH AND HOPE
NOTHING LIKE YOU
GETS CREATED EVER AGAIN

BECAUSE YOU DO NOTHING

YOU DO NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
NOTHING

YO’RE NOBODY

YOU’RE SHIT

NO AMOUNT OF PLASTIC SURGERY
COULD FIX A FUCKED UP FACE
AND AN UGLY SOUL AND HEART LIKE YOURS

YOU DUMB STUPID BITCH.
YUU REALLY ARE THE UGLIEST
MOST SHALLOW
MOST SELFISH FUCKED UP PERSON I HAVE EVER MET
DO THE WORLD A FAVOR
AND GO THE FUCK AWAY
SO NO ONE HAS TO DEAL
WITH SUCH A SHITTY FUCKING PERSON LIKE YOU

AND THE REAL MESSED UP PART IS YOU THINK YOU’RE SO FUCKIGN SMART AND GREAT

BUT YOU AREN’T AND YOU WILL NEVER BE
AND YOU’RE OLD AND UGLY
BECAUSE THAT’S HOW YOU ARE TO GOOD PEOP;LE
FUCK YOU BITCH

Why do you enjoy hurting someone who cared about you?

Why are you so unkind?

You let some girl answer your phone and question who I was like I had no right to call you

Like I meant nothing

That’s just mean.

And cruel

And I could never be that cruel to anyone I really cared about

I hope it was worth it

Because you are not the person I thought you were

You’re just careless and cruel like the rest of them

Thinking you’re so great but you act with no love but a lot of hate.

Maybe you don’t have empathy

Or you just don’t care

What you do to someone

Who’s barely hanging on

You didn’t have to give be happiness

But you didn’t have to make out worse

You don’t know what you do until it’s done to you.

some people
you just can’t trust

your words are meaningless
you don’t have a heart


I’m beginning to see
that you deserved
to be treated the way you did
because you’re far worse
and you don’t even see it

you’re not smart
just because you retain information
doesn’t make you a smart man
you hurt people just because you can
and that’s why
I want nothing more to do with you

stupid people
talk a lot about nothing
judge people about things that they do themselves
and feel the need to put other people down

why would anyone want to keep someone like that around?

I’ve seen all I need to see
you are worthless to me
you’re just another asshole
unaware of yourself
and shitty to everyone else

I rid myself of you
your ugly inside
has made you so ugly outside

I hope you see
what a bad person you really are.

just go back to where you came from
you make this world an ugly place
you are a waste
of a person

everything you do
will come back to you
mark my fucking words

and you wonder why
she treated you the way she did
now I KNOW why
cause you’re a BAD HUMAN BEING

AND NOT A TRUE FRIEND

YOU’RE JUST GOOOD AT PLAYING PRETEND

everything you do
is coming back to you

you need to suffer
and feel more pain
or do the world a favor and
just drink yourself to death

tonight i left my old self behind
and this time
i’m not looking back
i’m not going back
if you were a part of the old me
then i left you where you need to be
there’s nothing back there left for me
nothing more i need to see
it’s time for me to be free

and leave all the shitty things to be shitty away from me


i only care that you make it through
but i am not here for you now
you are only thinking about you
you will just find somebody new
to use
to replace
the face
and fill the space
so you don’t feel alone
every time you get left behind

you only care about yourself
and about being right

i don’t care to fight
for your care
when you are
so unaware
of how hurtful you can be

i can’t make a blind man see
you can be however you want to be
without me

and i know i’ll be happier without you.





–

you can’t treat me like i don’t exist
if i don’t

you can’t ignore someone
if they aren’t around to speak

you can’t use someone
who doesn’t exist.

or maybe you can
but at least i won’t be there to care if you do.

now i won’t be hurt by any of you.