I need love too

I tired

Why go I have to be the one to always give YOU love?

I can’t no more

I can’t anymore

I did it for years

I would always try when you didn’t

Reach out when you wouldn’t

And now when I need it

You just leave

So that

Is

On

You.

I’m sorry

You gave done everything you can

To make me feel

Unwanted

Unimportant

And I’m done

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Car ride to work

You don’t need my love

You definitely don’t want it

I’ll take the blame

As long as you stay away from me

You don’t know how to treat people and you like to say that I don’t.

If I did even 2% of what you do – you’d kill me.

Hell you’d kill me eventually if I stay.

You can’t do this and expect me to still think you’re a decent person

But knowing you you’ll make up some fucked up reason in your head to justify why you treat me the way you do –

SAVE YOUR BULLSHIT

I’m done. I don’t need your “love”

Love doesn’t equal money

Love isn’t name calling and drinking and blaming

Love is appreciation and caring about someone other than yourself and I’ve done enough if that for the crumbs you give me in return

Why should I be grateful?

Cause you can take your shit out on me?

I’m done with your crazy drunk ass

You can’t even communicate effectively

But you can blame like A pro

And that you are

A professional abuser.

You’ll never see yourself or learn and you just lost the one person who tried and loved you the most.

I’M NOT GOD

I DO NOT ENFORCE KARMA

BUT KARMA FROM THIS MIGHT MAKE YOU A BETTER PERSON FOR SOMEONE ELSE and I hope it does

Just please stay away from me for good. I have no more love for you

Karmas a bitch?

For once you are absolutely right.

Goodbye you psycho

A happy poem for you

You are my love

You piss in my garden

And laugh about it

After it’s been done

You will always be the one

For me

You make me haaapppppyyyyyy.

On nights like this

I like to kiss

The sweetness of your smile

Oh please won’t you stay

With my awhile.

You can piss on my strawberries all you want 😉

Happy not happy birthday

You’re either in or out

Don’t half ass shit

Or feed me your crumbs

And call it love

I hate birthdays…

Goodnight

For once

Why can’t you understand how i might feel? Or care to at least.

Why do you have to be angry?

Why do you have to be unloving

Look at what it is

You always only think about you

And I always think about you

I don’t just hold on to anger and use it like it’s an excuse for my behavior

I have a temper but I control that shit or else I’m called stupid or crazy

Yet you don’t have to control it cause you don’t feel like it and

What’s the point ?

I may have a lot to learn

But so do you

And it’s not ever gonna work if you don’t care about how I feel as well

I care about you

Do you really care about me?

You don’t seem to really care about my feelings.

You don’t seem to care about how much love i do show you and give you

You don’t seem to want to be better cause your past has made your future and your present and you’re not open to the possibility of it being better if you actually put some effort into it.

Loving you has been exhausting when you’re like this.

I can’t do it all without some kind of care in return. Some kind of honest desire for us to have a good relationship and the goal of being the best person cause you care about me and want it to work.

Man….if you could only see yourself from my perspective. If you knew how cold and unloving you can be after all the good times we’ve had. But you never look at the good. You just put me in a box with the rest of your exs and it’s not fair and it’s not kind and sometimes I just want you to be fair and kind and understanding and think about me.

I can’t make you do anything you dint want to do

And this is why I leave

Cause I can’t be the only one who really wants this to work and actually tries to be better

I can’t be the only one who cares

It’s a shitty feeling

If you ever felt unwanted then why would you make someone who honestly loves you feel that way?

I guess cause you never think about it like that.

You don’t care how I feel.

And I’m so tired of giving my heart to someone who couldn’t care less if I was in their life or not

If I’m that unimportant to you then I guess you’re better off without me around

And I’m better off not being around someone who doesn’t do anything to try to keep me around.

Goodnight

In my last days

I witness.

The sadness things.

That I love

Die .

And I don’t know why

Love notes & doodles I drew on a wall

I used to make things for the people I loved

Now I rarely do

Nothing inspires me to

These days

I drew silly pictures and

Wrote loving things

On his wall

All the things that were true

Because I wanted to

Only to find it

Painted over

Covered up

Scratched out

Like he did with me

Like he hated to see

Something

I did out of love

Like he hated me

I could never scratch out his name

His notes (he never wrote me)

His time (he rarely gave me)

The gifts (he didn’t make me)

He is not human

Nothing sticks to him

He can take my love

Throw it away

And then begin

Again somewhere else

How can that make me feel good?

To know I was all in

When he was never even close

He’s always been a lifetime away

So far away

Gut feeling

I hope she makes you happy

Since I never could

Letting life pass you by

Day comes

Day goes

Day in

Day out

Weeks pass

Months pass

Before you know it

The ones you left behind

Have passed you by

In a flash

Within the blink of an eye

Do you ever regret

Taking the people and things that came in your life

For granted?

Or for not taking them at all?

I wonder if you even care…

Weird night

In a room

I’ve seen once before

I don’t know how I got here tonight

I guess a car

But I mean how it came about it

I guess life throws weird curve balls

At even stranger times

Who knows…

He’s says I’m so nice

Like that’s a bad thing

Like it’s uncommon or something

I guess it is… These days

But I think he might need

A little nice