You’re either in or out
Don’t half ass shit
Or feed me your crumbs
And call it love
I hate birthdays…
Goodnight
Category: poetry
For once
Why can’t you understand how i might feel? Or care to at least.
Why do you have to be angry?
Why do you have to be unloving
Look at what it is
You always only think about you
And I always think about you
I don’t just hold on to anger and use it like it’s an excuse for my behavior
I have a temper but I control that shit or else I’m called stupid or crazy
Yet you don’t have to control it cause you don’t feel like it and
What’s the point ?
I may have a lot to learn
But so do you
And it’s not ever gonna work if you don’t care about how I feel as well
I care about you
Do you really care about me?
You don’t seem to really care about my feelings.
You don’t seem to care about how much love i do show you and give you
You don’t seem to want to be better cause your past has made your future and your present and you’re not open to the possibility of it being better if you actually put some effort into it.
Loving you has been exhausting when you’re like this.
I can’t do it all without some kind of care in return. Some kind of honest desire for us to have a good relationship and the goal of being the best person cause you care about me and want it to work.
Man….if you could only see yourself from my perspective. If you knew how cold and unloving you can be after all the good times we’ve had. But you never look at the good. You just put me in a box with the rest of your exs and it’s not fair and it’s not kind and sometimes I just want you to be fair and kind and understanding and think about me.
I can’t make you do anything you dint want to do
And this is why I leave
Cause I can’t be the only one who really wants this to work and actually tries to be better
I can’t be the only one who cares
It’s a shitty feeling
If you ever felt unwanted then why would you make someone who honestly loves you feel that way?
I guess cause you never think about it like that.
You don’t care how I feel.
And I’m so tired of giving my heart to someone who couldn’t care less if I was in their life or not
If I’m that unimportant to you then I guess you’re better off without me around
And I’m better off not being around someone who doesn’t do anything to try to keep me around.
Goodnight
In my last days
I witness.
The sadness things.
That I love
Die .
And I don’t know why
Love notes & doodles I drew on a wall
I used to make things for the people I loved
Now I rarely do
Nothing inspires me to
These days
I drew silly pictures and
Wrote loving things
On his wall
All the things that were true
Because I wanted to
Only to find it
Painted over
Covered up
Scratched out
Like he did with me
Like he hated to see
Something
I did out of love
Like he hated me
I could never scratch out his name
His notes (he never wrote me)
His time (he rarely gave me)
The gifts (he didn’t make me)
He is not human
Nothing sticks to him
He can take my love
Throw it away
And then begin
Again somewhere else
How can that make me feel good?
To know I was all in
When he was never even close
He’s always been a lifetime away
So far away
Gut feeling
I hope she makes you happy
Since I never could
Letting life pass you by
Day comes
Day goes
Day in
Day out
Weeks pass
Months pass
Before you know it
The ones you left behind
Have passed you by
In a flash
Within the blink of an eye
Do you ever regret
Taking the people and things that came in your life
For granted?
Or for not taking them at all?
I wonder if you even care…
Weird night
In a room
I’ve seen once before
I don’t know how I got here tonight
I guess a car
But I mean how it came about it
I guess life throws weird curve balls
At even stranger times
Who knows…
He’s says I’m so nice
Like that’s a bad thing
Like it’s uncommon or something
I guess it is… These days
But I think he might need
A little nice
Sometimes…
I feel like a motherless child
Truth
I am letting you go
I am no longer holding on to what is no longer there
I’m not waiting for your care
Or your love
I’m not waiting for a sign
Or a phone call
Or a reply
That will never come
I’m not fooling myself by seeing your little effort give as a loaf of bread
When in reality
All you gave were crumbs
And that is why I would keep trying
Over crumbs I foolishly thought was love
But it wasn’t love
And you never really cared
And you don’t really care now
Cause if you did
I would feel it
I’ve been the one to reach out
To show interest
To take time
And now I’m done.
I’m not angry
I’m not even that sad
I’m just aware that
Holding on to you
Is a waste of time
If you didn’t appreciate me then
You never will
I can’t make you see
What you don’t
Or don’t want to see
I can’t make you feel what you do not feel
I accept you are the way you are
And it’s not what I want
And what I was holding onto is just an illusion I created in my head
And I won’t hold on to shadow
I no longer hold on to you
goodbye
Forever
I let you go
And I am okay
Apathy
A night
A fuck
A sore
A bore
It’s hard to ignore
The lack of care
In your stare
Unaffected
Disconnected
It’s the way
People in this town
Seem to be
Now
And this apathy
Is making me
Want to get the fuck out
Of this
And jump into
Something new.
Just listen you stubborn man
I love you
Come here
Please.
For once
Just come here
Knock on my door and
Love me
Yes this is for you
You stubborn man…
🙂
skin loves fever 
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