skin loves fever

Dumb some

Sit down stale
silence between
The artificial illuminations
That fill your screen
Smoke in mirrors
Eyes unclean

Eyes unseen

Restless in waiting
For the never ever

Never

ever

to come

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by kyoko cole

Skin

Static between my ears

Poker face

To make you chase

something else. that isn’t there

I do what I do

To throw you off

To throw you in

The opposite direction

To minimize detection

To eliminate inspection

The big cover up

A shout in the street

A shot in the dark

We greet the same different things

Over and over again

What we think is new

Is really far from new

and few

Things really change

But really

Deja-vu pollution

Sprayed high & low
Gets Under your skin
Splat boom pow!

And in!

The Twisted desire

Of life on fire

Bird on a wire

Are we

beyond the fantastic

Plastic

Cover Up?

To keep up

The illusion of life and living

To keep us living life

Thrift store paintings of
Memories that smell like gasoline

And mildew we once knew

The Star kids
Cock fight dance

The indoor hours
real gone

Out of the red

And into the white

But not without a fight
Pure war

Too much flavor
Comes crashing down
Come Sunday

I confess
All my sins that I repress
Change of face

And pace

And change of dress

Can’t cover up

The real mess

You really are

by kyoko cole

One hell of a night

After all is said and done

You’re the only one…

For me :)

Bullshit

You wanna trash this?

You want me to hate you cause you’re still you

You might have quit the booze and the drugs

But you ain’t got much to show for it

With a mouth like yours

Why would anybody stick around?

You’re too much

Too little

Too soon

Too late

Too fucking annoying.

I don’t care to care to make it right

Cause I can’t make you right

When you think you do no wrong

Spit your nasty shit at some other girl

Try and change someone else to be a necrotic jealous angry control freak like you.

Cause it ain’t me babe

It ain’t me

Not good enough for me.

You bring me down and i don’t really care about how you feel when you make me feel like shit

It’s time for me to quit

This bullshit

And not even think of you.

As anything worth my time

Cause you’re not

And i’m just tired of you

And everything you’re about

A man is as broken as he wants to be

Oh you
You are not that broken
As you want to believe
As you want others to see
You are broken cause
Broken is who you choose to be
But I will have no part in your sob story
Wounded bird
Helpless victim
Hopeless soul
Bullshit bit
You’ve got more fear than you’d like to admit
I really do but really don’t give a shit
And it’s you who breaks more good
Than he makes good

So don’t act like

I host the ghost of you

I can hear you in the silence

Echoing my ears

I see the trace of your face

Everywhere and it brings me to tears

Feels like years

Oh it feels like years

So I host

Your ghost

That haunts me

And my fears

Most everyday

Long after you left

You just won’t go away

And I can’t rid myself of you, you, you

Oh you

Why don’t you stay

A little bit longer

A little bit later

A little more

A little less

Look at me now

You left me Alone in this mess

I must confess:I find comfort in your shadow

Of yesterday’s past

But the more you linger

The less I live
Oh you

You you

Please just go away

but he can’t be a man cause he doesn’t smoke the same cigarettes as me

walking through the store
couldn’t carry anymore
couldn’t care any less
as i do right now

in some other life
i took a knife
and carved 2 names on a tree

To preserve the time of we

Many moons ago when it was just you and me

And the cats

To see the names and remember the life

We lived long before this

And remember the love

We both miss

Over a life time ago

We knew someday we would meet again

Break the hyoid bone already

You’re too much
Please stop
I’m a person who needs space
Who needs time with other people
Who needs to be away
From you

I don’t need every single aspect of my life TO BE a part of yours

HUNTED DOWN
Like an animal
You want to squeeze to death
You want to love to death
No air
no privacy

You’re making me feel like i can’t breathe

Even when you’re away
You’re still there
Silently watching
I can feel you
And it makes my stomach turn to know
Nothing is mine

You need to care
To not care about everything
To not invade my everything
To be okay that I want to be with others
To be okay that I don’t want to be with you
Without making me feel bad
Without making me feel bad
WITHOUT MAKING ME FEEL BAD
Or i’m going to run away
As far and as fast as I can
To get away from you
to get the air I need
To breathe
And the space I need
To breathe
To not feel bad
That I don’t want what you want in the way you want it
No guilt trips
No sad face
No holding shit over my head
No suffocation
No pressure
NO FUCKING PRESSURE!!!!
NO MORE!