Late night meeting
He comes
A groan withdraws
Within the pardon
I need a distraction
I need his diversion
Another night aborts around the twelve turnaround
Moving through the halo of numbers
Choking the hands of time
This outline destines the viable trigger
Will he shake the smallest moon?
Or shake a farewell
And make distances of my ugly past?
The trade views the spectrum
Before a crime emerges the music
I am almost back from the dead
Time is a tick of the mind
Where we once belonged
Has gone far away
Today
And now
Black smoke
Beautiful losers
A shout in the street
Start to fade
All that we made
Is born to die
A brief history of time
Obsession
Old lovers
Under freeway balconies
Nude naked and stripped
Secrets behind smiles
The horse would know, but the horse can’t talk
Rhapsodies in black
Documenting disposable people
Disposers
Exposers
Of
Ghost images
Ghost people
ghost world
Once Held together by water
But now Broken apart by man
Is it just a minor glitch?
Or Did they flip the major switch?
Maybe we were powered down
Like little robots held spellbound
Held captive under their cloak
Your truth is just their joke
That most of you folks
believe
But mark my words
they got something up their sleeve
I don’t know what’s coming
But I know it can’t be good
They got us thinkin
Left is right
So we got reasons to pick a fight
We ain’t thinking like we should
I don’t know what’s coming.
But I know it won’t be good
Every kiss
That I miss
He does not
Miss at all
He built his wall
Between us
He does not call
He does not care
To have me there
With him
He doesn’t love me
Anymore
He shut the door
On me
If he could only see
Things from inside of my heart
But what’s the point?
He lied
He cheated
He treated me
Like shit
Worse than shit
Like nothing
Everyone else saw it
I held on to the good
That was just a lie
That’s why
I don’t even try
He’s a lost cause
It’s pointless now
To hold on to something
Or someone
Who cared so little
When I cared so much.
under cover tears
and under cover fears
steers
the ship
without help
from me or you
under a moonless darkness
of questions
My heart weeps
while
your other lover sleeps
She rests without worry
without wonder
Without thought
As she takes
your heart and soul for a walk
in the streets of longing i seek
the things you shall never speak
not to me
ever
and never
when
i needed you to
an enigma is not that great
When it’s an empty full of hate
it has no soul
and has no control
but i’m not the one
who’s got you trapped
down in a hole
and calls it child support
but yet I am the one
who you abort
cause you’re old
cause you’re cold
the last sentence you saw
makes people shiver
the last sentence you saw
is running away
to a better day
a more passionate evening
stole all the goods
i have a trained assassin stay overnight
just in case
i’m caught up in a fight
i didn’t start
but i WILL end
when i send in
my ninja friend
to break
some knees
please
let the HEARTBREAKING lies
roll over us
like the warm summer breeze.
abstraction is often FIVE floorS above you
while
subtraction is a hundred floors below
that is something
you see in others
but in yourself
will never know
Morning sun slips in
Through the blacks of My eyes
A second away from night
A moment away from sight
And many moons and days away from you
Feels like years now since we were we
I know you’ve moved on to worse things that make you feel better
At least for now
And I just move around in beds and in heads of others
To distract
I might seem okay to everyone else but it’s all just an act
A sad little act that maybe I’ll someday actually be
But the real me
Is a sad sight to see
inside I am empty
lonely
And lost
without you.
And there’s nothing I can do
Cause there’s no reason to
You gave me nothing
A million times left with no reply
Now nothing is all I got left
To give
So I don’t even try
In rooms alone it still makes me cry
I know the reason why
so i don’t even try
-kyoko cole 2018
to be ignored
By the person you truly love
Is the worst feeling in the world.
You told me the truth
In a dream last night
You showed me what I already had known was true
But to see you and her…
Right here
Right there
Made me aware
That I was never the one you really loved
You love her still and always will
And in my dream I felt my heart really break
I felt the child inside me ache
All I could do was cry
As I watched something I loved so much
Die
And then I awoke
With the tears
But no more fears
Cause I knew it was you
Cause I knew it was true
And because I knew this time it really was our last goodbye.
