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Where are you?

Not here

That’s why

When you look for me

I’ll be gone

I’m done

I guess I was right

Promises made

Words said

Without follow through

Are still lies

LIES

LIAR

Where are you?

I am alone

But I’d rather be alone

Than with a liar

Who believes his lies

You haven’t been through half the shit I have

This has reopened old wounds

And your words

Have no wisdom of your own

You just repeat what you think you should say

Without having to get in the trenches

Or too close

And I’ve known this is how you are

That’s why I keep you at a distance

That’s why I go back

To be loved and understood

Instead of be pacified with words

Like you do

just

words.

Don’t leave me now.

You know

That this

Is it.

I don’t care what you do

Without me

It’s always been the same

And I’m not gonna be a part of your game

But on a happier note

I lost my love for you

And that’s what you wanted

And that’s what you’ve got

I think it’s pretty stupid that you think you see everything

But you only see what you want

Hate me

I wouldn’t date you again

Even if someone paid me to

Cause you made me out to be

Someone in not

You’re the liar

The loser

Accuser

Abuser

And I’m done. I’m free

I don’t care what you do cause I don’t care about you anymore

Since you never cared about me

Yay

I must get over this

Drastic changes are needed

Cause it’s not working your way

it’s not working for me at all

Your call

But staying this way

Is only going to make me leave

And not say anything

Cause I can’t say anything without

An excuse

Or a disregard

Or deaf ears

And it’s really sad

That you didn’t learn the first time

But this is killing my spirit

And my soul

And I’m better than this

So I’m gonna get myself back

Far away from you

You never appreciate what you gave until it’s gone.

I’m hurting

And this needs to stop

Now

But for this to stop

I need to stop

And I’ll stop for good

Cause you don’t make me feel special or good at all anymore

You have a heart of stone

I haven’t slept in two days
cause you put me through hell
your lack of care
your lack of tact
your lack of you
and the fact that I’m here upset
while you snore your way into a deep deep sleep
while I’m getting more upset
and less and less sleep cause my mind won’t stop
PISSES ME OFF

breathe, kyoko
this shit don’t matter

deep down inside
I know that
anyone who can feel so little
will have so little
and he’ll most likely be happier than the rest of us
who feel the weight of. the world
and love
and have a heart

that which does not care about me
I do not have time to care about anymore

it’s the habit of caring that’s my problem
look
I’m up at 5 am
while he’s probably snoring his way into/out of a stupor
why would I want someone who doesn’t see me clearly
who WANTS to misunderstand
and mistreat me?

I don’t

I really fucking don’t

he bad outweighs the good

in this case

and in a few others

and I’m learning that
anyone who makes me feel anything less than good
is not anyone I want to invest my time into.

I used to love him
but he only loved me with conditions

I’m fading out

I need sleep

a long sleep
where you won’t be there to haunt me tonight
or every again.

When you find out that someone you thought was good to you

Is just like so many other douchebags that fill the streets of LA

The truth is

You are not all those things you say and think you are

You are exactly what I don’t want

Nobody would want someone who doesn’t see themselves and can’t be real

You only care about you

And I’m starting to not care about you cause you have done nothing to help

The love you have was only for you

Not to actually love me

You don’t know a single thing about love

You’re a child

That most people want to smack in the face when they meet you

Cause you come off like an arrogant kid who thinks he’s bad ass. You come off like you deserve better treatment than you are willing to give

And people just don’t like you

Now I understand why

Cause I don’t like you now that I’ve seen who you really are

I guess my friends are better at reading people than I am

Or I just don’t listen to myself. I knew you could be like this yet I believed you when you said you would be different and that you could change

Ha. That’s a laugh

You are still exactly the same

And I don’t really like who you are now

And I will do anything and everything I can to make sure you stay away from me cause I don’t want to be around someone like you

We were close but you haven’t been there for me when i needed

And you don’t even care to try

Cause you’re a shitty person

People who are decent do things to be there for the people they love and care about

You do not

So I don’t want you

You’re not cool

You think you know things you have no clue about

And most importantly

When someone you forced your love on

As well as made them believe that you loved them

Is going through the hardest time in their lives

And you can’t even be decent enough to be there or check in on them….

That makes you a pretty shitty human being.

That makes you

A little boy with no loyalty. No heart. No care. Nobody. You are nobody.

I hope you learn how you made me feel and I hope it hurts.

I also hope you stay away from me cause I don’t want anything to do with any part of your big headed, cocky for no reason, heartless self.

You are a worthless person when it comes down to it. A worthless person pretending to be someone you’re not.

Go away from here . I’ll expose you for the sleazy – selfish child you are… And/ or I’ll make sure you stay away by other means.

I don’t like you

I don’t have to be nice to someone I don’t like and don’t trust.

You were the biggest waste of time and I’m glad to trash you for good.

You will get yours. And it won’t be from me. But when karma does come back at you

I’ll just sit back and watch and laugh cause you deserve it. You deserve worse to teach you how to be a decent person.

Good riddance