Now that you’re gone
I have no one by my side
To help me through
That person was always you
Now i feel the loneliness
Of being truly alone
You were the greatest friend
I have ever known
That this world has ever shown
I’m not alright
I’m not okay
Just take me back
To a better day
You were always there for me
And I’m so grateful for that
And for you
Until we meet again
I love you…
My sweet friend
Every kiss
That I miss
He does not
Miss at all
He built his wall
Between us
He does not call
He does not care
To have me there
With him
He doesn’t love me
Anymore
He shut the door
On me
If he could only see
Things from inside of my heart
But what’s the point?
He lied
He cheated
He treated me
Like shit
Worse than shit
Like nothing
Everyone else saw it
I held on to the good
That was just a lie
That’s why
I don’t even try
He’s a lost cause
It’s pointless now
To hold on to something
Or someone
Who cared so little
When I cared so much.
If I ever had a connection with anyone
Right now is the time to feel me
I can’t speak the words
I can’t move
I can’t go to you
I need you to feel me
And do something
Or not
Maybe that’s the way it needs to be
But if that’s the case
Then nothing means anything
And everything means nothing
And I’ll go to sleep alone
Just like I’ll die alone
And it all was a waste of time
Releasing Emotional Patterns with Essential Oils (2017 Edition): 2017 Edition
under cover tears
and under cover fears
steers
the ship
without help
from me or you
under a moonless darkness
of questions
My heart weeps
while
your other lover sleeps
She rests without worry
without wonder
Without thought
As she takes
your heart and soul for a walk
in the streets of longing i seek
the things you shall never speak
not to me
ever
and never
when
i needed you to
an enigma is not that great
When it’s an empty full of hate
it has no soul
and has no control
but i’m not the one
who’s got you trapped
down in a hole
and calls it child support
but yet I am the one
who you abort
cause you’re old
cause you’re cold
the last sentence you saw
makes people shiver
the last sentence you saw
is running away
to a better day
a more passionate evening
stole all the goods
i have a trained assassin stay overnight
just in case
i’m caught up in a fight
i didn’t start
but i WILL end
when i send in
my ninja friend
to break
some knees
please
let the HEARTBREAKING lies
roll over us
like the warm summer breeze.
abstraction is often FIVE floorS above you
while
subtraction is a hundred floors below
that is something
you see in others
but in yourself
will never know
Morning sun slips in
Through the blacks of My eyes
A second away from night
A moment away from sight
And many moons and days away from you
Feels like years now since we were we
I know you’ve moved on to worse things that make you feel better
At least for now
And I just move around in beds and in heads of others
To distract
I might seem okay to everyone else but it’s all just an act
A sad little act that maybe I’ll someday actually be
But the real me
Is a sad sight to see
inside I am empty
lonely
And lost
without you.
And there’s nothing I can do
Cause there’s no reason to
You gave me nothing
A million times left with no reply
Now nothing is all I got left
To give
So I don’t even try
In rooms alone it still makes me cry
I know the reason why
so i don’t even try
-kyoko cole 2018
to be ignored
By the person you truly love
Is the worst feeling in the world.
Avoid
Avoid
A void
Is all you
It’s all you do
Anything that takes some work
makes you take off
sets you off
You have something to prove
The way you move
Shows an anger
That has built
Over time
the way you deal
Is by not dealing at all
one question leads you to war
there’s no way to even the score
With a narcissist like you
you can’t forgive
You can’t give love
You don’t have
You build up a false self
while the real you hides somewhere
collecting dust on a shelf
and it sucks being somebody who loves you
Cause you can’t change
If you think you’re perfect
Everyone is happy
Happier without me.
I’m an illusion
Of what you want to see
At first you love me
Then I’m someone you hate
Don’t build me up
I’ll only let you down
I’m not someone great
Obviously….
I wish I was
I wish I had
I could wish my life away
Only to die
All alone someday
I see pictures of people
I used to know
They only come
To only go
Living lives
I wish I had
But it’s okay
It just makes me sad
Goodnight
Farewell
No more morning
For me
No mourning ever for you
To all the ones
Who I thought loved
But never knew
What a terrible thing
You call love
What a low
You call life
So many times I see
The Nothing behind your eyes
I won’t let myself disappear
From believing all your lies
And I don’t have to be as cold
As you
to keep myself alive
I don’t have to be as bold
As you
To prove I will survive
You can try
You can try
To spin me
in
your web of illusion
Your ties of confusion
You can stay down with your demons
You can stay dark with the night
You can stay hidden within the shadows
But you can’t take away my light
You can try
But you won’t take away my light
I won’t follow you down
Your rabbit hole
Of fables
Your flip switch
Turn of tables
I won’t chase you
I ain’t gonna race you
And I sure as hell won’t embrace you
At the cost
Of me
Getting lost
Just to find you
Running out the door
I won’t take any more
You love to make me wait
You love to use love as bait
To fake your way in
And make me believe you care
But baby
Better beware
it’s a trap
It’s all just a trap
And I ain’t yours no more
The loneliness
You can’t escape
It’s there with our without you
It’s there in a crowded room
It’s there on a deserted street
I used to enjoy being alone
Cause I wasn’t lonely
Now I don’t enjoy much of anything
Everything reminds me of something that is no more
Dead flowers of yesterday
Fill my days
And haunt my nights
