skin loves fever

You’re a dead man

Barely walking

Stupid talking

Emotional

Then so emotionless

You cause yourself a lot of stress

By the shit you say

And say

Over and over again

but never do

You play the part

Like you got a clue

But then you act out

And show everyone you don’t

You don’t back that mouth up

You are too weak to change

No care to care about

Anyone or anything

Not even yourself

You only care to defend what makes you wrong

Same old story

Same old song

No one wants to hear your words

No one wants to see your face

While you chase

the ugly dragon

Waste your life

Around

The same old circle

Again and again

Never getting anywhere

You’re head

Up in the clouds

You’re a dead man

Barely walking

Barely there

Shitty attitude

For a shitty you

And that’s the you

You have decided to choose

Matter over mind

Drugs over friends

Over music

Over living

Over you

I can’t trust anyone

Especially the ones who try so hard to make me believe I can.

No more

Me

Around

Waiting to get fucked with

EVER

AGAIN

you got another thing coming.

I’m going

I ain’t got no friend

Say goodbye

Say goodnight

This shit is about to end

I.

NEED.

HELP.

IN SEARCH OF A REAL PERSON/ FRIEND

( WHO FOLLOWS THROUGH WITH HIS/HER WORD AND WHO GIVES A FUCK ABOUT COMMITMENTS AND FRIENDSHIP RESPECT MORE THAN JUST TEMPORARY BULLSHIT THAT DOESN’T MEAN ANYTHING TOMORROW ) SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T JUST TALK UP A BUNCH OF SHIT AND NOT BACK IT UP.

NO FLAKES

NO PHONIES

NO BULLSHITERS

NO DRUG ADDICTS/ DEALERS UNLESS YOU HAVE A GOOD HEART AND ARE THE BEST OF THE BEST. NO STARVING DRUG DEALERS WHO ARE STURUGGLING TO DO THAT YET STILL WON’T GET A REAL JOB THAT ACTUALLY HELPS YOU

NO INSECURE PEOPLE WHO DON’T KNOW THEMSELVES BUT TALK A BIG GAME JUST TO DRAW ME IN AND MAKE THEMSELVES SOUND MORE IMPORTANT THAN THEY ARE.

NO BULLSHIT

ACCEPTING APPLICATIONS NOW

;)

Thank you

For the nice day

I had a great yoga class

Spent time with someone who means a lot to me.

Went to work

Saw some nice people

The weather was good

Stayed away from things that didn’t feel right to me

Got home safely

Got to spend time with my cats

for the most part

It was a pretty good day

And that’s something I am grateful for.

I know you’ll never love me as much as you loved her.

…

It’s lonely in here

When you’re mad at me

For believing shit that isn’t true

And it kills a piece of my heart

To know you don’t care to hear me

You don’t care to want to treat me nice

You don’t care to see the truth

Not what you think or believe

But what actually happened

I wish I was important enough

To you

To have your trust and love and understanding

To not feel this loneliness and this bad

Right now

I don’t understand why I matter so little

To you

When you matter to me

I try to be different and better than I have been

And it still seems like it just isn’t good enough

I’m not good enough

Again

K.f.

You’re a waste of space

What a waste of time

You were.

You wasted my time

And then act like a little stupid child.

You are

Pathetic.

You are

Spoiled and stupid and know nothing about what it is to really be a decent person.

You hide it so well though

You weren’t even a real friend

So from this moment on

Because of you

NO MORE SPOILED BRATS

NO MORE IMMATURE BABY’S WHO CAN’T EXIST WITHOUT MOMMY AND DADDYS HELP.

And shame on those parents who give their kids way too much

And are overbearing

You tell your kid how great everything they do is

Even when it sucks

So then they actually believe they are better than they truly are

You give em an ego

And that ego makes me want to vomit.

Shame on you!!!

You allow it so they never grow up

You take care of them and every thing that real adults have to deal with – so they are safe

So they don’t grow up

But they get older never doing things for themselves

You enable them to be little bitches who don’t know the value of things cause they never really had to work hard for anything in life

Your help is not helping them

They are not better people because of you

All you’re doing is making them into assholes

And you suck as parents

Just as much as they suck as people

Yeah! Pass that shit down!

Just what we need in the world! More selfish entitled jerks.

Fuck you

I should have told you where I was.

I should have not left you for so long without saying something

I should have not jumped out of the car.

I feel like an idiot

I’m sorry.

I’m stupid

But I never wanted to make you mad

If i seem dramatic

It’s not cause I want the attention of others

I just want yours.

I’m sorry