skin loves fever

Everything goes away so quickly here

Why the hell wouldn’t I doubt

What it is

You’re all about

Feels unsafe

After you made me feel secure

Now I’m left to feel unsure

It doesn’t make you think

It doesn’t make you care

Or maybe you just pretend

To be so unaware

So I stop

Thinking

Of what we have ( had)

As more

Cause how would it feel

For me to ignore

You

Do

Whatever you want

To do

And I’m just someone

You want around when it’s fun

But that is why

I need to be done

It’s not nice

It’s not love

It’s not putting in

Anything good

When you could

Maybe you should

Be the better one

If you’re so much better than me

But without real care

You wouldn’t even care

To see

And that hurts

No reply

Discarded

Restarded

I never did anything to you

For you to treat me like you do

But it doesn’t mean anything to you

And it never will

You will always be out for the kill

Just to get your thrill

Off on the pain of someone else

And I still wish you a happy life

But I get nothing

No reply

No reason why

I deserve to be treated like shit

When all I’ve done is love you.

So I can’t love you anymore

I can’t treat you like someone when you treat me like no one

So I have to let you go

I accept you

I accept that you will never really love anyone

Cause you don’t really truly love yourself.

And I accept that you are unable to accept the love of others.

I accept that you will never love me

http://www.expressionsofspirit.com/starborn.htm

Last night

You held me close

You showed me love

And were the person I fell in love with again

That’s why I love you

But you changed as quickly as you drank that bottle of tequila

And became this other person

Who wants to hate me

And who doesn’t care about me at all

After all the many times this has happened

(It always happens after a bottle of tequila)

I know now that you really don’t care about me at all

That other you tells me you don’t want me around

And I’ve tried to be strong so many times

But you knock me down

And then ask me back.

And I’m dumb cause I remember the love only

And forget about how many times you’ve shown me and told me you don’t want me and don’t love me

So now I’ll believe that side is the real you and the loving side is just temporary. Hardly there never stays. And it never lasts.

I’ll remember the love you gave for those few moments and cherish them forever. And think of you as someone I once loved but died long ago.

And your evil side a stranger I don’t know and don’t want to ever know

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It’s hard to get over you

But what do you do for me?

Nothing important

Money don’t mean shit

Money doesn’t make you a good person

Especially money that you didn’t even work hard for

I forgive you for being a product of abuse and crazy tall tells and anger and no love

You only “love” what’s easy to love

You have no real strength as a man

You’ll have no real strength to make it beyond this physical world

Your hate just breeds hate

That’s so easy

And lame

Your love made me change

But like every control freak narcissist

You withhold love just cause you can

You’re a weak ass man

In everyone’s book

You don’t know who you are

Cause your bipolar Bullshit

Makes you flip

Makes you trip out

On things that don’t even exist

Love does exist and it’s the one thing you don’t and won’t and will never have

Cause you never had it given to you at the age you really needed it

So anyone that does now or did love you before

You destroy

Before they have any chance to destroy you

Which most times isn’t what they’re doing at all

So sad

So sad to see such potential wasted cause you were broken the day you were born

I forgive you for hurting me

Cause you can’t change. You don’t want to but it’s cause you can’t.

Its something you incapable of doing

Everyone else does things to better themselves and others and you just think you’re fine the way you are cause you had to tell yourself that in order to survive

Sad little man

That I loved so much

I feel for you

Cause once someone gets to know the real you

You make them not want to feel anything for you at all

It’s easy to love someone who doesn’t need love cause they already have it

It’s not easy to love someone like you who actually needs it

And I did

But you didn’t care about any of that

I forgive you

For all the hurt you caused

I forgive you for being cruel and hurtful when you the chance to turn it around and be better

You choose hate everytime

And that is who you are.

I can’t and won’t change that

You won’t either

That’s just the truth

You don’t know how to love anything right

And I dint blame you for that

You’re disabled in that way

And I feel sorry for someone like you

Someone else made you this way

And you are clueless

To the fact that your way is an awful way to be.